I like to get the five o'clock bean french roast coffee. I could drink it all day until about 4pm after that i cant sleep if i drink it. I hate the regular brew coffee like maxwell house and folgers, i would rather just have water. The darker roasts by them are ok in a pinch though.
akafreelife
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If you drink coffee . . .
by compound complex indo you prefer regular brew or the fancy offerings?
can you drink it -- the leaded stuff -- any time, night or day?.
no survey here, just curious.
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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akafreelife
Today I have decided to start a good strong exercise regiment too to help release those good endorphin that i need. Staying positive is half the battle right?
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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akafreelife
Thank you everyone for all your insight today. It started out rough but with your thoughts and a good friend of mine that surfaced from the past the day ended very well. We played a music jam session tonight and i had forgoten how much i was missing that. Playing drums is very theraputic I had been focused on writting so much heartache that i stopped playing my drums. My friend made me realize that i have tons to offer someone. Next time i am going to be more careful in my choices and for a while i will be focused on what i need to make myself whole and happy inside. At least that is what i am saying now but who knows what tomorrow will bring.
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40 Furry, Tiny, Sweet and Adorable Baby Animals. Guaranteed to brighten your day!
by ohiocowboy inif you are looking for a cuteness overload, here's a link to 40 pictures of baby animals.
enjoy!!!.
http://www.flabber.nl/linkdump/plaatjes/daily-cute-40-absurd-schattige-babydiertjes-13870.
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akafreelife
needed this i have not been smiling much lately
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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akafreelife
i dont have insurance right now so i cant afford counciling unfortunatly. I did go through some when i was deprograming from being a jw but that was a couple years ago. That is how i got rid of my anger towards my parents and have learned how to deal with them.
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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akafreelife
Well i just got back from picking my stuff up. That was one of the hardest things i have had to do emotionally in a long time. We said our goodbyes and i think that is the last time i will see her. Sad but i think it had to occur this way.
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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akafreelife
You all are awesome this is what i really needed to hear. I am greatful for this. Its just hard when there is no one around to tell you these things without them throwing in "if you would just come back to the truth you would be loved" which is what my mom and dad usually hit me up with.
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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akafreelife
Well i am not much of a drinker to begin with that shouldn't be the problem. I may have had a 12 pack all of last year. I am on the same page as you though whathappened i figured i should be a priority in a relationship not the last thing thought of. i realized that i would not take priority over her kids but i thought i should be up close to the top of the to do list. Thank you for the kind words
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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akafreelife
I have to see her today to get the rest of my things that i still had at her house. I dont know how to face her and not fall apart i still love her deeply.
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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akafreelife
It has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then. Been married and getting divorced, and now have a son. Life has not been kind to me since i have left the org. My lack of skills relating to people sucks ass. When I do start a relationship I am constantly taken advantage of being that i have such a desire to feel love and friendship being that i had lost everything when i left.
I was dating a girl recently and I really fucked it up i think. I was feeling so alone and like such a island in the sea of humanity that I immedatly latched onto her and maybe smothered that relationship. We dated for about 5 months and basicly lived together from about 2 weeks into our relationship. didn't intend it to be that way but we spent so much exclusive time together that it kinda just happened. I gave my all to this woman i treated her like a princess and was very loving to her and her childern. About the begining of december she went with some friends to Chicago to see a weekend concert and things were never the same since. I didn't try to hold her back from going or anything but when she came back she seemed to keep a distance from me. This continued up through the holidays we had made plans to be with her family for xmas being that i am the only one outside of my childern in my family who celebrates. About 2 days before Christmas she told me being that i had my son we needed to not come to her mom and dads. She knew that i had him when we made plans but hey i adapted. So Christmas was very lonely. About 2 days later she tells me we need to talk. She proceeds to tell me that I need to move out and that she needs her space back but she did not want to break up. I didn't argue so i started looking imediatly and found something within a few days. I had not moved out yet by the time New years came around. I figured that i would spend New Years eve with the woman who said she loves me but I was wrong again. She went with her kids to a event downtown but ended up leaving early. She did not want to come home to me though to celebrate she decided to go to a friends instead. This deeply hurt me but i kept it to myself. I finally got into my new house on jan 5th and was hoping that this would make things better between us but it was rocky. I had asked her shortly after i had moved out if she would spend my birthday with me on jan 13th and she said she would. I ended up calling her the day before to see what we were going to do she asked me what time i was coming over i told her 5:30pm she then tells me she had made plans with a friend for 7 so that was not going to work out. I was floored and deeply hurt. She said i could come over at 8:30 if i wanted to. I told her i would as i was holding back my tears. She knew i was deeply upset. THe next day she ended up canceling her plans with that friend but never informed me of it. When i called her at 8:15 to tell her i was on my way she tells me she was heading off to bed as she was not feeling real well but i could still come over and spend the night. I was stunned......... I went there and felt like i was a lepper she barely even hugged me. The next day i could not take it anymore the pain of being shut out overwhelmed me and i broke off our relationship or what was left of it.
I am sitting here today so down and depressed trying to figure my life out. It sucks to realize i have no one there for me. I have 2 friends in this whole world and one of those has not talked to me in months even though i have tried to contact him many times. The other one is his sister who just so happened to confess her adoration of me in a romantic way on tuesday so that situation i am trying to sift through. There is so much and my head is spinning. I have hit the local bar hard this week geting drunk every night to try to dull all of this madness but it has not helped. I need someone to talk to someone who understands this tormented life i live.