I can't believe how much I bought in to all that crap. I wish I could say I didn't have the holier than thou attitude when I was in, but I would be lying. Thamk goodness I was treated like trash when bedridden as that saved my life from rotting away in the borg.
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I had to laugh
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my boyfriend and i went out to dinner tonight and we had trouble getting in the door because a portly clueless man was standing in the door.
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I had to laugh
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my boyfriend and i went out to dinner tonight and we had trouble getting in the door because a portly clueless man was standing in the door.
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My boyfriend and I went out to dinner tonight and we had trouble getting in the door because a portly clueless man was standing in the door. Once we managed to squeeze in past the gent and got our name on the wait list, we ended up facing the man and his family. I suddenly realized they were wearing name badges and the requisite polyester dress clothes of good Southern dubbies. My boyfriend made the comment that our clueless chubby dubby must be high up on the dub food chain if his waist was anything to go by (his badge indicated he was an attendant). We saw several chubby dubby men after that and decided that elders must be chosen by their girth. I thought it was funny. Cheap laughs at the expense of the borg is always welcome. Since I still have no power from the violent wind storms last Friday night and we are having to eat out for most meals, I am sure I will encounter more than my share of dubbies this weekend...oh joy!
I also realized how grateful I was not having to parade about town like a circus spectacle simply because I spent the weekend mentally numb at the grand annual mind frack. We also had a little fun because we were waiting on a bench with another couple (that I am pretty sure were dubbies without badges) by speaking about the Conti case and my own abuse. The woman was definitely eavesdropping and kept staring at me as if she knew me. I guess she will try to figure out what congo I am from so she can report my apostate ways or she was truly appalled by what she heard. One can hope it is the latter.
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How the Conti case has re-opened a can of worms for me
by Soldier77 ini haven't been one to start a lot of threads and i've actually been gone from this board for about a year only to return after the conti case blew open.
i stopped coming here because i had moved on with my life and really started to put being a jw behind me and stopped concerning myself with it.. my anger and hate of the wtbts had come to a simmer, i don't think it will or would have completely cooled, but then on one fateful morning i awake to an email from my mother.
i haven't talked to my mother in about 6 months as our last conversation was her spouting off how great of a time she was having serving where the need was greater and it was all about her and her husband and jehovah this and jehovah that.
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I understand where you are coming from. I had a similar experience (I may even have posted it early on joining the site). I have also had my experiences with abuse among the dubs (pedophile/elder/step-creep + the loving judicial committee I faced at age 10 regarding the abuse = nightmares) brought back to the forefront. I agree that going back to counseling is important. Keep a journal and write your feelings out. If pursuing legal action will aid in your healing then go for it!
I don't think it is shunning when you avoid someone because it is affecting your emotional/mental health, in my personal opinion. I have several people in my life now that I consider toxic and as much as I may care for them, I limit my time with them as I cannot stand the negativity that exudes from them.
My case is past the expiration date, but I worry about new victims of the step-creep as he is currently in good standing in his congo in NC. He molested at least 4 others beside myself...all because of the wonderful policies in place.
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Hilarious! If you enjoy Family Guy you will like Ted.
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Ireland
by FreeGirl2006 ini am headed to ireland this year (yeah!!!!).
i will be in dublin, wicklow, killarney, and galway.
any suggestions on must-see places, excellent pubs, shops, art galleries, etc?
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I wish I was going to have the time to head north! That would be incredible to see where the Titanic was built! Of course, Jameson's and Guiness are on my list!
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Ireland
by FreeGirl2006 ini am headed to ireland this year (yeah!!!!).
i will be in dublin, wicklow, killarney, and galway.
any suggestions on must-see places, excellent pubs, shops, art galleries, etc?
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Thanks for the tip Phizzy. I think I will blow up my camera with use when I am over there!
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Ireland
by FreeGirl2006 ini am headed to ireland this year (yeah!!!!).
i will be in dublin, wicklow, killarney, and galway.
any suggestions on must-see places, excellent pubs, shops, art galleries, etc?
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FreeGirl2006
I am headed to Ireland this year (yeah!!!!). I will be in Dublin, Wicklow, Killarney, and Galway. Any suggestions on must-see places, excellent pubs, shops, art galleries, etc? I was in Dublin/Dun Laoghaire in 1992, but I am sure things have changed quite a bit since then.
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5 Mind Blowing Ways Your Memory Plays Tricks on You
by poopsiecakes inhttp://www.cracked.com/article_18704_5-mind-blowing-ways-your-memory-plays-tricks-you.html.
really interesting read - i would copy/paste the whole thing but there are a lot of pictures and a video.
a couple of things that stood out to me:.
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FreeGirl2006
Read the book, You Are Not So Smart.
It is a real eye opener and it does a good job of explaining why we turn to religion (among other things). The author covers some of the things mentioned on cracked.com. Totally cool book!!!!
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Are You A Screwed Up Adult Because You Were A Witness?
by minimus inor did it not matter that you were ever a witness---you're a bit screwy, anyway?.
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I haven't posted in a while but I have been lurking.This is an interesting thread to me and something my boyfriend and I discuss on a regular basis.
My boyfriend was a Baptist minister and as deeply entrenched in that cult/religion as I was with the Borg. I was born in and baptized by 14. I left in my late 30s. Boyfriend was pulled into his world in his mid~twenties. We compare notes all the time. Both of us feel as if we came up for oxygen and really started living once we left our respective mind/emotion prisons.
I realized what a joy it is to live day each rather than to be focused on a fairytale future. I decided when I left to be open to all possibilities. I try not to dwell on the damage I experienced being in the Borg and look at the fact that I am no longer depressed (spent most o my life being depressed), I no longer need medication to cope with life, I have good friends who genuinely care for me, I met the love of my life who treats me better than any of the emotionally repressed brothers I dated (or in the case of the ex-hub married), and I went back to school and graduated with a master's degree and run a very successful business. The harm I experienced from being a jw makes me appreciate how far I have come in the short (6 years) since I was kicked out. Truly the elders gave me a gift....maybe I should send my old Cong. a big bouquet of flowers!
I know I still have issues as a result of the Borg upbringing and sometimes it takes me by surprise the issues I have. It was a struggle to get my business up and running because in the back of my mind was "what is the point, it is all going to end soon." Apathy is something that the dubs are good at preaching about, but they have the largest portion of apathy in the world--apathy for the here and now. I would say that is the biggest thing I still struggle with is the apathy I was enveloped with for 35+ years.
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Growing up a gay Jehovah's Witness (My Life Story)
by m0nk3y ini feel the need to express how i feel and felt about my life as a gay man.
i was brought up from birth as a jehovahs witness.
this has played a major part in my life and it has been a real struggle to get past.
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FreeGirl2006
*hugs & more hugs* So glad you found unconditional love.