Welcome Barely There. Many of us have been in similar situations. There is life--a good life--to be had on the outside whether it includes JW family and friends or not.
Make some new friends. Get some counseling. Exercise to get the endorphins flowing. Find or revisit a hobby you love. Pamper yourself without the guilt. Do a little research on healing (Healing Handbook might be a good place to start). Come here to vent or find solace. You are not alone and that should be your mantra.