Revelation 14 says that Jesus brothers (and sisters) follow the Lamb where ever He goes. These haven’t slept with women ( meaning “religion”so the Wt teaches) they are spiritual virgins.
Thr Organization betrayed that descriptor when they became a Corporation and required the 144,000 to be obedient to the GB thus nullifying the relationship of Jesus would-be Anointed who were not of the GB. Now they were obliged to follow the Org. Their independent relationship to Jehovah and their relationship to Jesus was over. They effectively were nothing different from the great crowd. You don’t get to cultivate that great love for God when you answer to men. Poor things, they only take the emblems as a sorry reminder that they sold out. You can’t serve two masters.
There is nothing to say to you, you were turned into a man worshipper. You should be ashamed. And you believe you are humble. You pridefully broke the rules to come here.