Hi
I don't think I am an apostate, but do feel like one for being on these boards as we were always warned not to at the meetings etc.
I disagree with so many things they teach, the main thing is the blood issue....being a new auntie, I love my niece soooo much and if I were the only person that could save her, how on earth could I not? I'd be blood guilty for not saving her!!!!! That in my books, would be murder.
However, may be it's because i've only been away from the mtgs for a year, but I still think of it most days and although I feel I've made the right decision as nothing was making me happy in it, and obvioulsy my ex beating me and getting away with it.....I still feel a certain pull towards it and a kind of insane loyalty???
Anyone else feel like that? Or am I just a weirdo?
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