Hello
I'm diffinetly a newbie, still looking over my shoulder and wondering who sees me when I go to town.
My life as a witness started when in 1990 when my husband decided "we" should become JW. Well he got bap. in 91 and I kept up the smoking til '94 and got bap. we have one daughter now 25. It did make him a better person/husband. We have always struggled financly, and had to move to another small town with a small cong. My husband was having serious back problems and was to have a second surgery when the PO ordered him to man the mikes instead of sitting down and doing sound. Well he felt like he had to do what he said and it just made him resent the PO more. Later when he went for surgery NOBODY came around, and when they asked me why I hadn't been to the meeting, "oh, I forgot about that, is he ok?"
All this time I had doubts but we still attended the meetings as we should and what little FS time I could do since I had to take on full time work to pay the bills. Finally we thought we saw help from the cong. A sister offered to let us live in her family's house, abandoned, if we cleaned and remodeled it. We spent 3 months and many scavenging hrs (without hot water in Feb, ) getting the place livable, we even had the CO for lunch after service. Then the **** hit the fan, her son and daughter "missionaries in Africa" came home for a visit and kicked us out!
Said we were sponging off Mommy. We never took a cent and improved her house paid our utilities. Real ugly situation. Cong. took sides PO did nothing but say "Oh well". We did find another place to live and started seeing that JW's were very hypocritical.
Well we were inactive for about 5 yrs, moving around, feeling guilty. My husband and I tlaked about going back when we moved to where I am now. I had attended one Sun meeting and the day he was going back with me he suddenly collasped with a heart attack, never came back. The next wk I attendded Sun with my daughter and everyone was appalled that it was only 1 wk since he died and that I was there, I went for support, even though I really didn't know these people being that it was a new cong.I did make some friends. Then in March I was diagnosed with breast cancer, went through surgery now chemo and nobody has bothered to come around, I did try to call them but they are so"busy" .
Well I'm fed up. And when I came across this sight I thought maybe I could find some comfort with others in the same boat.
Will post more later.
