I just realized how closely the lyrics of this song represent my current feeling about the meetings. I never would have thought when I was young and first listened to this song how much it would apply to me now especially when attending the meetings
Comfortably Numb Pink Floyd
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone at home?
Come on now
I hear you're feeling down
Well I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again
Relax
I'll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts?
There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain you would not understand
This is not how I am
I have become comfortably numb
Okay
Just a little pinprick
There'll be no more, ah
But you may feel a little sick
Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working, good
That'll keep you going through the show
Come on it's time to go
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_cPxKq-gMDo
After finding out the TTaTT I went through the feelings that most on this forum can sympathise with but finally coming to terms with it in my own way to some degree.
It seems there is no way out for me after being a witness for more than 50 years. It's not possible right now for me to leave physically even though I want to. But I have left mentally and now just resigned to being comfortably numb at the meetings
Or maybe that should read uncomfortably numb.
(Maybe this could be the missing new song 151)