I always feel a little weird responding to this kind of post. Nine months ago Shannon said the same thing about me. Ask her how shocked she is that her mom woke up.
Your mom loves you. She wants to see you in the paradise. She thinks that you are literally throwing your life away. Guilt is the only thing she has left. It's a known weapon by mothers the world over when they can no longer pull you by the ear to the hall.
She can't help herself. You are her child.