Hey Harvard
Welcome here, I found the book "Exiting the JW Cult" very helpful for the range of emotions while pulling away. She is an ex-jw who became a phsychologist and explains the range of emotions.
Can I encourage you not to give up on God - I have found great comfort in learning what the bible really teaches and He is my only source of peace while I am trying to exit this thing. The great thing about this site is you can find a range a beliefs and opinions.
I wish you all the best on this journey.