Much thanks to everyone on this thread who has responded to how I am feeling. I appreciate all the advice and I will read up on shunning and i will also open my eyes further by reading the books that were suggested.
It is true they are no longer my brothers and sisters. unfortunately, they are lost and I don't want to be involved with people who would inflict mental pain on another. The only reason why I guess that I started to notice was because for many yrs when I would see the j.w.'s on the street I would try to cross the street before they would see me. You know how they try to get you to come back to the hall by making you feel guilty. Finally, I took my husband's advice and didn't allow them to make me feel like I did something wrong. It was just such a shock to see the immediate change when I found the courage to walk on the same side of the street actually walk right past them.
It took me awhile to get over the guilt of leaving but with everyone's support here on the board, I am convinced that it will take me a shorter time to get over the shunning. Besides, I must always ask myself what kind of God would make one feel humiliated.
Peace everyone and thanks again.
Freddi