here was her first post about an hour ago, tucked into another thread.
: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/142152/2551916/post.ashx#2551916.
i have been df'd for about 2 1/2 years now.
Angeleyes, you have come to the right place. All the people here, many have been through what your feeling now. You will find comfort, and friends that you felt didn't exist. I too have lost much, but have found the friendship, true love and concern from this site. Please stay close get to know us, and allow them to share their stories with you. You will see that you have true friends, that don't judge you, or bring pain, but are truly here for you.
Be strong!!! This too will past.
i have been hear for about a week now, and have not been is such a strange mental place since i was a witness.
it has been good, the programming still kicks in however, but i'm getting less and less afraid to reason with it.
i got my coc book yesterday.... i sat looking at it and thinking of all the years i avoided it, mischaracterized and marginalized it, w/out having any specific knowledge of what was actually in it.
You see this is why I love this site, there are so many people that have gone through what we have. it's not like there babes in the truth. When you read the post you see that they have many years in the truth, (smile) waht we thought was truth. I have learned so much here, i have read post for many weeks, and i no longer feel guilty about how i feel. You know when i was giving talks, at one time, i was really in it, but i starting loosing my zeal. I prayed to jehovah, please help me! I found this site, and i feel better about me. I feel better about life, I see why witnesses are called the Borg. They dont think for themselves. If the soicety said stand on your head, they would do it. Well i am tries of someone else controling my thoughts. The people on here, that i have never met, have help me to think for me. Not to do bad, but use waht Jehovah gave me, thinking abiltiy. Some have really been hurt, by loosing family members. I am the onl JW in my family, i am just know able to hold a conversation with my dad, sister , brother, and i am 50 yrs old. How sad, that you give half your life to a organization, and then find out the just how mind controling it has been.
you know, the one where independent bible research is forbidden, er, discouraged.. .
did anybody actually have the balls to say, "the society does not say such activities are forbidden or discouraged, just not endorsed?
" (nudge, nudge, wink, wink).
hello to all, I was really looking forward to this part, considering how much I love research. It was a joke, alot of laughing, and many deep in side knew that they look at other websites. I have to say that my eyes have been open to alot, of cover-ups, this makes me wonder, what is truth. Is there really truth in anything. We all know just about everybody has a computer at home, as Elders, Servants and publishers we all at one time have ventured out. I did, and look what i have found. I found people that think for themselves, that have felt what i feel .Thank you Jehovah, i am not crazy. This is why The Society dosent want us to look to other websites. We may just find what we are looking for. the Real Life
P..s i know I have only posted one time, and many wondered about me, but i am cool, i have to handle this with in my self, and i know if i need hepl i can truen to all you dear friends.
i just knew the gb would find a way to keep on going when the end never seems to come.
well, new light shining brightly we all recently learned that the 144k are still being selected.
no more need to "graft" new ones onto the broken branch.
hello all, yes i am still in, but man it's getting so hard to continue to give up my life , for something that's just not happening, my wife is pioneering, and i just cant contiue to do this. cost of living,gas, we sold our home 4 yrs agao. man that was a mistake. i just can't see wonderful people like us, all included dying for something we have no control over. I study, read pray, and it's just not happening. do any of you feel me?
