The journey is different for everyone but I can definitely relate to what you're going through. One thing that really helped me was attending an ex-jw meetup and meeting others who shared a similar experience. In my case, it helped to know that the people on this board was real and their stories were real and that I wasn't crazy.
And I'll tell you, after talking with Flipper I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off me.
Also, getting involved in volunteer or community activities really helps. You will find that non-JWs are not walking demons whose job is to corrupt you. You will meet some amazing people. Start conversations with strangers. Its interesting talking to people without the motive of at least placing a tract. I went through a phase where people seem to be aliens but then realized it was because I never really connected with people, my whole goal in the past was to convert them or plant a seed so that someone else could convert them.
But it all takes time, I took more sick days from work after finding out about the lie than I did in my entire work life. It completely threw me for loop like you would not believe...but then again, you probably would. Don't be down on yourself for believing the lie for so long, focus on how you will live now that you know the truth.
My recommendation, take life by the horns and get busy living. It will difficult at first because the JW sensors will go off and by default you will want to push non-JWs away. Then you have to hit the reset button and start again. It gets easier...
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