Posts by Bourne

it starts at 4:50. beethoven will probably always be at the top for me but this is great music.. sibelius finlandia: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rdzipg3beem&mode=related&search=.

Mozart: All symphonies, Piano Concertos, ditto for Beethoven, Mendelssohn, Dvorak, Tchaikovsky, and on the modern front, selected works by Copland, Holst, ......and, of course the Bourne Movie Scores.....

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"A MAN WITHOUT A COUNTRY"

by Bourne in

since coming to the realization that the jw religion does not hold all the answers, let alone most, the above statement describes me to a "t".

i'm separated from my wife, an almost certain divorce is on the horizon, and because of now being "inactive", with the exception of my family, i have seemingly lost what friends i had.. i can't bring myself to fully embrace "worldly" thinking about many things, yet, as long as i am not an "active" member of the collective, i have no chance of making friends.

in an earlier post, someone asked me the pointed question, "what do you want?

Bourne

Anti-Christ & sweetstuff: You are both dead-on in your respective points. Something I should clerify, though, is the fact of my entire family still being "in". Thankfully, they are not the hard-core type & I have had many good discussions with them individually that has brought me some comfort in knowing that, down the road, I don't think that I would lose them, regardless of what I choose. However, this has been a large part of my indecision. I know, it's pretty sad to allow this to hold me back, but they are a great family and I would hate to lose them. That said, It's MY life and I MUST do what is right for me. (Sounds like a Billy Joel song, doesnt it?)

Bourne

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"A MAN WITHOUT A COUNTRY"

by Bourne in

since coming to the realization that the jw religion does not hold all the answers, let alone most, the above statement describes me to a "t".

i'm separated from my wife, an almost certain divorce is on the horizon, and because of now being "inactive", with the exception of my family, i have seemingly lost what friends i had.. i can't bring myself to fully embrace "worldly" thinking about many things, yet, as long as i am not an "active" member of the collective, i have no chance of making friends.

in an earlier post, someone asked me the pointed question, "what do you want?

Bourne

Since coming to the realization that the JW religion does NOT hold all the answers, let alone most, the above statement describes me to a "T". I'm separated from my wife, an almost certain divorce is on the horizon, and because of now being "Inactive", with the exception of my family, I have seemingly lost what friends I had.

I can't bring myself to fully embrace "worldly" thinking about many things, yet, as long as I am not an "active" member of the collective, I have no chance of making friends. In an earlier post, someone asked me the pointed question, "What do YOU want?" After pondering that question for a moment, the thought occured to me: Throughout my WHOLE life raised in this religion, I was never allowed (or at least encouraged) to ask myself this.

So, I now find myself, wanting to have a "normal" life, to be able to love again, yet, as long as I "sit on the fence" as it were, I will remain in this self-imposed pergatory. As far as a love life is concerned, I have come to a present-conclusion that I would feel most comfortable with someone like ME: sounds cliche' I know but......a "nominal" JW at best, but most likely an inactive one that still feels spiritual but does'nt feel the need to partake of any organized religion.

Is there a way to have my cake and eat it too? Or MUST I make the hard choice and become......(drumroll)......."WORLDLY!".....echo......echo......

I welcome any thoughts or insight on this quandry of mine.

Bourne

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Nov. K.M. Songs?.......Please?.....Anyone?

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bump...bump...bump...

sspo: There are more than you think there are, believe me.

SirNose586: Har Har.....

"But seriously........"

Bourne

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Heartbreak - A Marriage Divided By Religion

by daniel-p in

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it's very hard for me to type these words - just as it was when i first knew i didn't believe in the wts and jehovah anymore.

i have a huge ball in the throat, my stomach refuses to settle down, i feel like vomitting, crying, wretching, heaving.

when i first left the truth my self-esteem plummeted.

Bourne

daniel-p,

I too have been in a similar situation. Because of my own paranoia, though, I can't go into many details. You can look at my 1st post to see my basic story if you want.

However, in my particular instance, religion has been only a "part" of our problems. Yet, I can attest to the divisive tendencies that the JW religion has in regards to marriage.

Your description of your feelings and emotions echos my own. Yet, as others have said, time has begun to heal my own wounds. All I can say is find someone to talk to, even if it is just YOU going to a marriage councilor. The following is a link to a website that I whole-heartedly agree with.... http://www.marriagefriendlytherapists.com/index.php?v=1.

Hang in there. Remember to take care of yourself WHILE you're trying to attend to your marriage. And if things take a turn for the worst, at least YOU can have a clear conscience about how YOU have handled the marriage. She will have to make HER OWN decision.

Take care,

Bourne

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Nov. K.M. Songs?.......Please?.....Anyone?

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Bourne

bump...bump........any takers?