Hi Teejay,
At times I feel a bit funny in this area too. I’m not fully to the agnostic side, less then you I suspect, but my experience with the Watch Tower has given me reason to reconsider everything I once believed in. My real problem is not with the prayer itself, but with the ritualism of it all. Why is it a rule that one has to pray before one eats?
I kind of feel a bit funny when my wife has a witness couple over for dinner and I’m expected to pray for all of us. What I often do is say something like; “Jim (or what ever his name may be) would you like to represent us in prayer”? Most of the time they feel honored that I, the so-called “head” bestowed this privilege on them. If it’s an Elder, even better, as they seem to think they already are the ones that should be leading everyone else in prayer. And if necessary, I do the prayer, but it often feels weird. I know I’ve offered you no solution to your situation, but I just posted this so you know you are not alone in feeling strange at those times.
Wishing you luck in your journey,
Freeman