it's amazing but since leaving the borg, i've learned to set proper boundaries.
it's had a big impact on my personal happiness.
this may sound stupid to some people, because 'worldly people' have and respect these boundaries natuarly.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR POST MORPH
I am trying to fade and have been getting some comments re my lack of meetings and asked if I am alright. It makes me feel very uncomfortable having to make up excuses. You are right because I don't have to give them reasons! I will adopt a new strategy from now on!
Maddie
i don't have much time to post as i'm headed back to the hospital, but my father collapsed this morning and had to be rushed to the hospital.
in a nutshell: he needs a blood transfusion as his hemoglobin is dropping (bleeding internally), but thanks to this fucking cult, that's not an option...........he'll accept the fractions but those bastards from the blood liaison committee have already shown up to ensure he doesn't cave............... for those of you who still believe, i'm asking you to say a prayer for my dad........and if anyone from crooklyn is reading this: you better hope my father doesn't die due to your fucked up rules, .
So sorry that this is happening Mary,
My prayers and love are with you
Love Maddie
i receieved an sms of my mum saying nan was slipping away i literally called as soon as i got the msg, and she had already passed away.
things were looking up for a bit, we were managing to get some water and food into her and she had accepted to have a tube put in her, they tried last night but it was unsuccessful.. when i saw her on saturday it was the most alert she was, sunday she had very laboured breathing and tonight when my mum go into the hosp, my nan was no responsive, it was like she just waited for my mum to come in and then she passed away.. im in shock, even tho i knew it was coming it was looking hopeful for a bit there.. thanks for your support.
es.
Hello Es, My heartfelt condolences for your sad loss
Maddie
you know him, every hall has one.. he really knows fashion.
he hangs out with all the middle aged women at the hall.
his gait, voice and gestures are feminine.. if he were a "wordly" man he'd be a "flamer".. well, here's my question: is he or isn't he?
We have an elder, not married and very effininate. He is aged about 60 and I have a sneaky feeling that he suffers from OCD.
Maddie
I have a very erratic sleep pattern these days. Sometimes I can't get to sleep until the early hours of the morning and then sleep really late. Other times I go to sleep okay but keep waking up every couple of hours. I have also been known to sleep walk when I was young.
Maddie
i enjoy writing as a creative outlet.
i have a few 'books' in the works.
likely they will stay in my hard drive rather than ever grace the nyt best seller list.
"It was always the same", thought Amy. "So why should it be any different this time?"
From her earliest recollections Amy had experienced losing people that she loved. At the age of five her father had been tragically killed in a road accident and Amy, not able to understand what "death" meant, had waited for daddy to come home and stop her mummy from crying.
"Jesus has taken your daddy to be with him", was the explanation given to Amy.
"Why does Jesus want my daddy?" Amy had asked with her childlike innocence. There was never an answer though and Amy would often lie in bed at night wondering why Jesus had taken her daddy to be with him, when she wanted her daddy here with her. As Amy tried to find an the answer, subconsciously she began to believe that she must of been to blame. "I must be bad if Jesus wanted to take my daddy away from me", was the explanation Amy gave to herself.
Life had been difficult after Amy's father died because her mother had struggled to earn enough money to live on, often going without food so that Amy had enough to eat.
As Amy's thoughts drifted back into the past, memories came flooding back to the day when her mother became ill. "It seems just like yesterday, can it really be all those years ago?" Amy spoke with a sigh. It was such a shock to Amy because within two days her mother was dead.
The next few years were a haze as Amy tried to get on with life, pushing all the grief deep down inside herself. Many times the pain would re-surface but Amy always pushed it away again.
Amy thought about her failed marriage. "I don't blame him, we both had so many problems in different ways". It had been a marriage of distrust and arguments most of the time and then one day he said he had found someone else and went.
Amy hadn't been looking for another relationship, Bob just seemed to arrive. Amy smiled as she thought of Bob with his kind, gentle manner and infectious grin. "I can really talk to Bob, tell him about how I feel and the fears that I have about losing everyone that I love", Amy said to herself ,startled by the sudden realisation that this was true. Bob had told her that he didn't intend going anywhere, that she was stuck with him!
"I've got a feeling that things will be alright from now on", Amy said as she heard the bell and went to open the front door to let Bob in......
Maddie ( I am not used to doing this so please don't be too hard on me ! )
this is something i found the other day.
it was written by a former.
international church of christ member, but it's very pertinent to .
I found it painful to read the list of hurts, so I guess I'm still hurting quite badly. Thanks though.
Maddie
just letting all you fine folks on jwd that i will be going offline for a while.
not for personal reasons, just technical issues.
i will be completely offline and unable to access the net.. so i will not be able to contact anyone via email either.. i dont know when i will be back.
Take care of yourself while you're away from us
Maddie
i saw this yesterday on abc and thought it was so cool and right that i wanted to share it with all of you, here's the link:.
http://abcnews.go.com/gma/personofweek/story?id=3633945&page=1.
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To my way of thinking this Professor wanted to leave something beautiful behind to people that he cared about.
Obves, why should you or anyone judge this man because he doesn't have your view or belief system? People gave him an ovation probably because they liked him ,respected him and warmed to his courage. These are all things to be applauded for surely, whatever our beliefs
Maddie
and i passed with a b!!!!!
most of my grades have been above a b but with this class even my friend told me (who is a number cruncher), they gave us an unfair advantage because they threw in all kinds of variables that was a bit too advanced for a person starting out.
the college is going to change this because they realize it is a bit much for "beginners" but we weren't so "lucky" to have it changed for us.
Well done FreedomFrog, that's really great that you did so well!!!
Maddie
