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  My mind won't shut off !

  by Maddie in

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  it is after 3am and i am sitting here on my own not being able to sleep.

  this seems to happen to me quite often lately and my head is like a washing machine - going round and round.

  i am going to see the doctor tomorrow and tell him how i am feeling.

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  Maddie

  I went to see my doctor today and had a good talk with him about the way I am feeling. He has given me anti-depressants which should also help my anxiety, and help me to sleep better. If I don't feel better after a few weeks I have to go back and see him again.

  Thank you to :-

  Phophecor, Hortensia, Changeling, Elsewhere, Return visitor, Blueblades, Jwfacts, Flipper, Purplesofa, Rebornagain, Dedpoet, AK-Jeff, Lisavegas, Oompa, Mentalclearness, Ex-nj-jw, Bobbi, Shopaholic

  I am going to take the advice that some of you gave me - reading the book "The Power of NOW", and write down my thoughts and feelings in a jounal. I don't know if I will be able to meditate at the moment but perhaps one day.

  I am not free of the borg yet, I am trying to "fade" because of family. I find it very stressful as I have said before because of not being honest and living a double life. I so much want to be rid of the borg completely.

  Mr Flipper - You and Mrs Flipper sent me a lovely post. Thank you for being so caring and saying I could PM you.

  AK - Jeff - Your "Big Hugs" poster was what I needed !

  My love to you all Maddie
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  My mind won't shut off !

  by Maddie in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  it is after 3am and i am sitting here on my own not being able to sleep.

  this seems to happen to me quite often lately and my head is like a washing machine - going round and round.

  i am going to see the doctor tomorrow and tell him how i am feeling.

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  Maddie

  Thanks everyone. I'm going to try to get some sleep now as it's nearly time to get up

  Maddie
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  My mind won't shut off !

  by Maddie in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  it is after 3am and i am sitting here on my own not being able to sleep.

  this seems to happen to me quite often lately and my head is like a washing machine - going round and round.

  i am going to see the doctor tomorrow and tell him how i am feeling.

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  Maddie

  TO BE OR NOT TO BE, THAT IS THE QUESTION

  WHETHER TIS NOBLER IN THE MIND

  TO SUFFER THE SLINGS AND ARROWS OF OUTRAGEOUS FORTUNE

  OR TAKE ARMS AGAINST A SEA OF TROUBLE

  AND BY OPPOSING END THEM............
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  My mind won't shut off !

  by Maddie in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  it is after 3am and i am sitting here on my own not being able to sleep.

  this seems to happen to me quite often lately and my head is like a washing machine - going round and round.

  i am going to see the doctor tomorrow and tell him how i am feeling.

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  Maddie

  Elsewhere - I would love to have some pot but it would only make me crazier than I already am I can't put anything addictive into my body because I will become dependent on it. I know from experience!

  I think counselling is a good idea and probably like you say "Time is a good healer"

  Maddie
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  My mind won't shut off !

  by Maddie in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  it is after 3am and i am sitting here on my own not being able to sleep.

  this seems to happen to me quite often lately and my head is like a washing machine - going round and round.

  i am going to see the doctor tomorrow and tell him how i am feeling.

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  Maddie

  It is after 3am and I am sitting here on my own not being able to sleep. This seems to happen to me quite often lately and my head is like a washing machine - going round and round. I am going to see the doctor tomorrow and tell him how I am feeling. It's at times like this when I want everything to be a bad dream so that when I wake up everything is going to be alright and the whole scenario of my involvement with the borg isn't real.

  Facing life on life's terms is so difficult for me sometimes. It would be so much easier to escape in a bottle of booze but that isn't an option for me these days. Some people believe that everything that happens to us is for a reason and a learning curve, that we grow from the difficulties we experience. Perhaps they are right, but it seems to me that some people have the tools to withstand the "slings and arrows of outrageous fortune" better than others. I don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself, just trying to think things through.

  Maybe I need to analyse my situation in life and make some changes in the way I think and act, or perhaps I am a little depressed which makes everything seem worse. I just hope that one day I will be a stronger person. Some of you guys seem to cope so well most of the time so it gives me hope that I will come through it.

  Thanks for being here,

  Maddie
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  What's your favourite line out of a song?

  by lfcviking in

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  here's a couple of mine;.

  "eleanor rigby, waits at the window wearing a face she keeps in a jar by the door" eleanor rigby - thebeatles.. "there's a hole in my soul, you can see it im my face it's a real big place" feel - robbie williams.

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  When you walk through a storm
  hold your head up high
  And don't be afraid of the dark.
  At the end of a storm is a golden sky

  And the sweet silver song of a lark.
  Walk on through the wind,
  Walk on through the rain,
  Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.

  Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
  And you'll never walk alone,
  You'll never, ever walk alone.
  Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

  And you'll never walk alone,
  You'll never, ever walk alone.

  Words And Music by Oscar Hammerstein II - Richard Rogers
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  Rate Yourself Regarding Your Personality & Popularity

  by minimus in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  how would you rate yourself?

  do you have a magnetic personality?

  does everyone want to invite you to their party??

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  Do you have a magnetic personality? No I don't think so but some people like to come and talk with me

  Do others want to invite you to their party? I used to be invited to parties quite a lot but I'm not really a party animal these days

  Are you a loner? No but I need to have my space and plenty of quiet time

  Is it hard for you to make friends? Yes, I stick to a few that I trust

  Do you think you would be missed? Yes, but only by a few people
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  Went to bookstudy last night, ugh!

  by Wasanelder Once in

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  ok, i didn't go the kh at least.

  i have a couple who have been my friends for years, i studied with them and they became witnoids.

  he is now and ms and was conducting a book study in a home last night.

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  Wasanelder Once

  I couldn't face going to the Book Study tonight for the very same reasons you found it so awful. I went a couple of weeks ago and it felt like torture! I couldn't wait for it to finish and it felt like it was going on forever. I didn't answer up because I couldn't face saying such utter rubbish when I wanted to say what I really thought. There were only a handful of us there so there I felt uncomfortable and almost ran out the door when it was over.

  Maddie
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  My Belief in a Higher Power But Not in any Organized Religion

  by flipper in

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  hello folks.

  i feel i've been out of the witness organization long enough to have developed some pretty good idea of what my beliefs are now in regards to a higher power and organized religion that i felt comfortable to share it with you , my friends here on jwd.

  i respect you all have your takes, religious and non- religious, but just wanted to share a little of myself with you folks , wondering if any of you have felt what i feel.

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  Mr Flipper I still have mixed up thoughts and feelings about organised religion. IMO I don't believe that we have to belong to a specific church to have God ( Higher Power ) in our lives. In the Bible Jesus said, "I am The Way, the Truth and the Life". He didn't say that we had to go to a particular church. Personally I find that very reasurring as at the moment I can't even visualise going inside another church, when I finally extricate myself from borg, that.

  Thousands of people have been able to overcome their potentially fatal addictions in "Recovery", by finding a Higher Power as a source of strength. Each person is allowed to define their own definition of HP without any problem and the fact is it really works !

  Maddie
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  Please join us in a toast to freedom!

  by dedpoet in

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  i posted this thread last week.

  http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/9/142937/1.ashx.

  about a friend of ours who had been informed by her elders that she .

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  Cheers to FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  Maddie