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  I'm getting baptized

  by BlackWolf in

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  i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

  my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

  i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

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  BlackWolf

  I actually do have a job, and I plan on getting another one soon. I live in Florida if anyone's curious.

  Anyways, today I tried to tell my mom that I wanted to wait, that I didn't have enough time to be ready before convention. She said "why? You have six weeks, and I've already called grandma and she's planning on coming"

  I don't know what to do now, I cant come up with a good excuse. Im feeling kind of helpless. I'm afraid she's going to find out I don't really want to be a witness if I just tell her I changed my mind and that I don't want to be baptized. Then not only will my parents view my as evil, but also all my extended family thats planning on coming down here.

  I feel very afraid and trapped. :(
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  I'm getting baptized

  by BlackWolf in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

  my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

  i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

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  BlackWolf

  Thank you all, everyone on this forum has helped me a lot to gain the confidence I need to stand up to my parents. I'm going to talk to them and see if I can buy some time. I've realized I can't let my delusional parents and the cult to control my life.

  This morning my mom was talking to me about how the end was SO soon and she was so happy that I've decided to do what was right, and in a few years she expects me to be married to a ministerial servant. All this talk sickened me and I realized I can't go in like this, I have to be free and I can't be baptized!
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  I'm getting baptized

  by BlackWolf in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

  my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

  i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

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  BlackWolf

  I know that getting baptized is a bad decision but I had an incident last year that I really, really don't want to repeat. I can explain if you guys want but its a long story.

  Also my elder father threatened to take away the only things in life I enjoy if I didn't show signs of being "spiritually stronger" and "putting the kingdom first". I'm very afraid and I feel like I have no choice. Also saying that Jesus got baptized when he was 30 doesn't work, I tried. :( I'm at a very low point right now, I'm sorry if this thread is annoying.
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  I'm getting baptized

  by BlackWolf in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

  my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

  i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

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  BlackWolf

  Thank you all for your advice. I know you mean well but its too late to go back now, I've already told them I'm going to do it. Honestly sometimes I feel like I have a split personality, jw me and whatever the real me is. I guess the Jehovah's witness in me just took over this time. :( I feel so alone and I just want to be accepted.
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  I'm getting baptized

  by BlackWolf in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

  my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

  i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

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  BlackWolf

  I know I've started similar topics before but this time I'm serious. My parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if I was going to be baptized this summer... and I said yes. I probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway. There's no going back now.

  I have no friends and no family to go to if I refused to be baptized and my parents kicked me out. I'm deciding to play it safe for now and maybe when I'm an adult and I move away I can fade. I don't know what else to do? I home school and I've got no friends at all, my immediate family is all I have. I can't afford to get on their bad side or my life will be 10x worse than it already is.
  
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  Why is Mother's Day wrong?

  by stuckinarut2 in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  so why is celebrating mother's day wrong according to witnesses?.

  is it not an opportunity to show respect to the giver of life (mother) and therefore god, the originator of families?.

  does it not give an opportunity for members of the family to give a hard working mother a day off?

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  I was about to ask the same question, but really it all comes down to jws being anti fun. They hate when your having fun doing something not related to jwdom, it could be a "distraction". And they hate it even more when your appreciating someone other than jehover and jw.Borg.
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  New Spiritually Weak Label: Not Using Tablet/iPhone

  by Doubtfully Yours in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  with last night's meeting it became official: here in the states is a must to keep up with 'jehovah's org' that one fully jumps on board with this tablet/iphone crap.. so, now, all of us that up to this point have refused to follow the wtbts in their electronic/wireless revolution will deal with the browbeating from the 'spiritual' ones.. already receiving lots of grief from hubby and rest of the family/close friends when seen at the meetings with paper publications.

  damn it!!!

  am i alone in this resistance???!!!.

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  BlackWolf

  I was quite glad when my grandmother bought me and my 3 siblings tablets last year to use for jw.Borg! I've never brought mine to the meeting once, I prefer to read on paper and kill some more of the watchtowers precious trees. I use my tablet to play games on and read apostate sites, its pretty fun. ;)
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  Were you beaten as a child?

  by purrpurr in

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  2. experiences

  i've been confronting my mother with her dubious parenting skills (abuse) of me as a child.

  particularly the beatings i would get with the wooden spoon.

  not a light smack but hitting me as hard as she could for as long as she could.

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  BlackWolf

  Yes me and my three siblings have been slapped, punched, and spanked in every way. We still are. I'll admit there are a few times we may have deserved it but most of the time it is just unnecessary. A few months ago I had told my dad that I didn't want to go meeting and he slapped me on the face so hard it swelled up. I haven't complained since. :(
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  New ANTI-GAY video for Kids on jw.org

  by ttdtt in

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  https://www.jw.org/en/bible-teachings/family/children/become-jehovahs-friend/videos/one-man-one-woman-marriage/.

  disgusting!.

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  BlackWolf

  Man! My dads probably gonna make us watch this crap at our next family worship, and then my moms going to go on and on about how disgusting gay people are like usual. Little do they know I'm actually bisexual :( This video makes me sad.

  Edit: my mom just watched it and she thought it was risque!
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  Any thought behind your " Avatar"

  by The Rebel in

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  2. friends

  i think that's the correct phrase?

  anyway when i first came here, that little picture that "the rebel" hides behind, was a self portrait of a very sad man, who simply had too much knowledge.

  now i feel after 7 months here, i should repaint that " avetor" give some happiness to the eyes, and a contented smile to the lips.. in short my " avetor" was a self portrait of a man with too much knowledge.

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  BlackWolf

  Mine is of course another play on the sheep metaphor. I'm the apostate, a wolf hiding in sheep's clothing. ;)