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I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

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friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

Thank you so much everyone. Sorry i havent been on here for quite a few days. :) My parents haven't mentioned baptism since I talked to them last so I'm hoping we can just forget this incident for the time being. I've told them I'm confused so that should hold them off for a while.

Ive really thought about things recently, i will be 18 next summer, and even though it will be hard I know I can move away then. Even though I feel really depressed sometimes I still try to have hope for the future and I think about all the things I want to do once I'm free. I can't just give in and forever live in fear of my parents and the Borg. Every time I go to the hall or participate in some jw activity I get a feeling of almost unbearable anxiety, like I need to run away from this place and these people. I can't be baptized and endure this forever! I thank you all for helping me to come to this realization. I'm going to let this thread go now. :)

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I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

BlackWolf

Thank you all for your amazing support!

I talked to my dad about the generation doctrine last night, I showed him job 42:16 where it says a generation is 35 years. I said I didn't understand how more than a hundred years could be one generation. But of course he just regurgitated the the same watchtower crap that doesn't make any sense. I still said I didn't understand (I honestly don't, how could a generation be more than a hundred years?!) It didn't really go any where though, he wasn't able to explain it very well... He said he needed to do more research. Hopefully this proves that I don't have enough understanding to get baptized. I did as a few people on here suggested and let him come up with an answer, but he didn't come up with anything very convincing.

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I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

BlackWolf

Thank you all so much for your help! Everyone here is so much more kind and understanding than any jw I have ever met.

Last night I gathered my courage and I told my father the truth, that I am not ready to be baptized and I'm only doing it to make him happy. He asked me why I wasn't ready, and I said I have too many doubts ( whether this is gods organization, governing body, 1914, overlapping generation ). He said we would study these topics over the next few weeks and then I can make my decision.

Anybody have any advice on how I can easily disprove these topics without sounding like an apostate? This is my big opportunity to possibly wake up my dad!!

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I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

BlackWolf

I actually do have a job, and I plan on getting another one soon. I live in Florida if anyone's curious.

Anyways, today I tried to tell my mom that I wanted to wait, that I didn't have enough time to be ready before convention. She said "why? You have six weeks, and I've already called grandma and she's planning on coming"

I don't know what to do now, I cant come up with a good excuse. Im feeling kind of helpless. I'm afraid she's going to find out I don't really want to be a witness if I just tell her I changed my mind and that I don't want to be baptized. Then not only will my parents view my as evil, but also all my extended family thats planning on coming down here.

I feel very afraid and trapped. :(

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I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

BlackWolf

Thank you all, everyone on this forum has helped me a lot to gain the confidence I need to stand up to my parents. I'm going to talk to them and see if I can buy some time. I've realized I can't let my delusional parents and the cult to control my life.

This morning my mom was talking to me about how the end was SO soon and she was so happy that I've decided to do what was right, and in a few years she expects me to be married to a ministerial servant. All this talk sickened me and I realized I can't go in like this, I have to be free and I can't be baptized!

150

I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

BlackWolf

I know that getting baptized is a bad decision but I had an incident last year that I really, really don't want to repeat. I can explain if you guys want but its a long story.

Also my elder father threatened to take away the only things in life I enjoy if I didn't show signs of being "spiritually stronger" and "putting the kingdom first". I'm very afraid and I feel like I have no choice. Also saying that Jesus got baptized when he was 30 doesn't work, I tried. :( I'm at a very low point right now, I'm sorry if this thread is annoying.

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I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

BlackWolf

Thank you all for your advice. I know you mean well but its too late to go back now, I've already told them I'm going to do it. Honestly sometimes I feel like I have a split personality, jw me and whatever the real me is. I guess the Jehovah's witness in me just took over this time. :( I feel so alone and I just want to be accepted.

150

I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

BlackWolf

I know I've started similar topics before but this time I'm serious. My parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if I was going to be baptized this summer... and I said yes. I probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway. There's no going back now.

I have no friends and no family to go to if I refused to be baptized and my parents kicked me out. I'm deciding to play it safe for now and maybe when I'm an adult and I move away I can fade. I don't know what else to do? I home school and I've got no friends at all, my immediate family is all I have. I can't afford to get on their bad side or my life will be 10x worse than it already is.

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Why is Mother's Day wrong?

by stuckinarut2 in

so why is celebrating mother's day wrong according to witnesses?.

is it not an opportunity to show respect to the giver of life (mother) and therefore god, the originator of families?.

does it not give an opportunity for members of the family to give a hard working mother a day off?

BlackWolf

I was about to ask the same question, but really it all comes down to jws being anti fun. They hate when your having fun doing something not related to jwdom, it could be a "distraction". And they hate it even more when your appreciating someone other than jehover and jw.Borg.

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New Spiritually Weak Label: Not Using Tablet/iPhone

by Doubtfully Yours in

with last night's meeting it became official: here in the states is a must to keep up with 'jehovah's org' that one fully jumps on board with this tablet/iphone crap.. so, now, all of us that up to this point have refused to follow the wtbts in their electronic/wireless revolution will deal with the browbeating from the 'spiritual' ones.. already receiving lots of grief from hubby and rest of the family/close friends when seen at the meetings with paper publications.

damn it!!!

am i alone in this resistance???!!!.

BlackWolf

I was quite glad when my grandmother bought me and my 3 siblings tablets last year to use for jw.Borg! I've never brought mine to the meeting once, I prefer to read on paper and kill some more of the watchtowers precious trees. I use my tablet to play games on and read apostate sites, its pretty fun. ;)