Wasaneleder once: I know what you mean, I've been to the mental hospital ( aka prison) quite a few times already and it was horrible. I don't joke around with that stuff anymore.
BlackWolf
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How do you deal with depression?
by BlackWolf ini'm currently going through a bout of depression and my eating disorder has gotten worse.
ever since my parents actually told me that they are going to kick me out when i turn 18 i've felt kind of hopeless about my life.
my parents won't take me to the doctor because the psychiatrists won't have my "best interests" aka jw crap in mind, because really that's the root of all my problems.. i'm wondering if any of you guys have any advice with dealing with depression?
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How do you deal with depression?
by BlackWolf ini'm currently going through a bout of depression and my eating disorder has gotten worse.
ever since my parents actually told me that they are going to kick me out when i turn 18 i've felt kind of hopeless about my life.
my parents won't take me to the doctor because the psychiatrists won't have my "best interests" aka jw crap in mind, because really that's the root of all my problems.. i'm wondering if any of you guys have any advice with dealing with depression?
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BlackWolf
Thanks everybody, I will try the exercise ( though it's so hot where I live). My parents told me that I can only live with them if I go to all the meetings an out in service 3 times a week, those are the house rules apparently. I can't legally move out yet, so I'm forced to be a jw. It irritates me that children have no rights when it comes to religion. :(
Anyways, I'm trying to look on the bright side. I haven't had any success with my aunt, (we aren't close and she's busy all the time) but it's OK. I've realized that I can't rely on my family members, I have to be independent. I'm thinking of moving somewhere ive never been before and starting a new life. :)
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How do you deal with depression?
by BlackWolf ini'm currently going through a bout of depression and my eating disorder has gotten worse.
ever since my parents actually told me that they are going to kick me out when i turn 18 i've felt kind of hopeless about my life.
my parents won't take me to the doctor because the psychiatrists won't have my "best interests" aka jw crap in mind, because really that's the root of all my problems.. i'm wondering if any of you guys have any advice with dealing with depression?
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BlackWolf
Thanks everyone, I'm going to try to stay more positive. I don't have any non jws friends or relatives I can talk to, but coming on here always makes me feel a little better.
I would like to point out that I'm not going to do anything that would make my parents angrier than they already are. I don't want to be seen as rebellious because that's not what it is at all. I'm trying to lay low for now until I graduate and get my life in order.
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How do you deal with depression?
by BlackWolf ini'm currently going through a bout of depression and my eating disorder has gotten worse.
ever since my parents actually told me that they are going to kick me out when i turn 18 i've felt kind of hopeless about my life.
my parents won't take me to the doctor because the psychiatrists won't have my "best interests" aka jw crap in mind, because really that's the root of all my problems.. i'm wondering if any of you guys have any advice with dealing with depression?
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BlackWolf
No I homeschool unfortunately.
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How do you deal with depression?
by BlackWolf ini'm currently going through a bout of depression and my eating disorder has gotten worse.
ever since my parents actually told me that they are going to kick me out when i turn 18 i've felt kind of hopeless about my life.
my parents won't take me to the doctor because the psychiatrists won't have my "best interests" aka jw crap in mind, because really that's the root of all my problems.. i'm wondering if any of you guys have any advice with dealing with depression?
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BlackWolf
I'm currently going through a bout of depression and my eating disorder has gotten worse. Ever since my parents actually told me that they are going to kick me out when I turn 18 I've felt kind of hopeless about my life. My parents won't take me to the doctor because the psychiatrists won't have my "best interests" aka jw crap in mind, because really that's the root of all my problems.
I'm wondering if any of you guys have any advice with dealing with depression? Like I've heard many people say before, "if you don't come into the cult with problems, they'll give you one."
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Jehovah protects his people. Did he ever protect you?
by TimeBandit inhello forum.
i started this topic because i had been thinking recently about a story that i had heard many times in different congregations over the years.
kind of a jw urban legend if you will.
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BlackWolf
A few years ago my family and I were driving to a convention when I started having extreme stomach pains and became violently ill. When I went to the hospital they rushed me into surgery and it turns out I had a twisted fallopian tube (pretty weird I know). I was only 12 then and I was thoroughly convinced that this was Jehovah punishing me for not wanting to go the convention. I was paranoid for months afterward, I was afraid of not being good enough for God to protect me and him letting me get sick and die at any moment. I now realize how insane it was to think that. It was the doctors who saved my life, not Jehovah's mercy.
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Can you relate?
by TimeBandit ini used to try really hard to fit in when i was an active, true blue jw.
somehow it hardly ever paid off.
time after time i attempted to mingle and make jw friends.
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BlackWolf
I totally understand! Just last night I was at the meeting and I stood there awkwardly by myself, smiling and waiting for someone to talk to me but of course no one did. I really don't understand why I'm such an outcast, I haven't done anything wrong, and I'm not mean or ugly. I'm not baptized, but I'm only 16 so that's normal. Maybe its because I think differently than the rest of them, and they don't like it that i have goals outside of the cult.
Jws are so hard to be friends with, I realized there's really no point in trying. They judge your every move, and if for some reason your not good enough anymore they will treat you like you dont exist anymore. Its not fair. :(
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Should I just tell my parents
by BlackWolf inlately i've been feeling just so fed up with this stupid religion i really can't take it anymore!
i'm starting to think that maybe i should just tell my parents how i really feel.
if they treat me too badly or kick me out i could probably stay with my non jw aunt.. ive just reached my breaking point, i don't really care what people think of me anymore.
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BlackWolf
Thanks that is very encouraging! As soon I save up some money and get a car, I am out of here. You are right, I can't spend my life trying to please others.
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Should I just tell my parents
by BlackWolf inlately i've been feeling just so fed up with this stupid religion i really can't take it anymore!
i'm starting to think that maybe i should just tell my parents how i really feel.
if they treat me too badly or kick me out i could probably stay with my non jw aunt.. ive just reached my breaking point, i don't really care what people think of me anymore.
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BlackWolf
Kairos: If only it were that easy, but it isn't :(
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Should I just tell my parents
by BlackWolf inlately i've been feeling just so fed up with this stupid religion i really can't take it anymore!
i'm starting to think that maybe i should just tell my parents how i really feel.
if they treat me too badly or kick me out i could probably stay with my non jw aunt.. ive just reached my breaking point, i don't really care what people think of me anymore.
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BlackWolf
Thanks everybody, I'm feeling much more calm today and I'm going to try to lay low for a bit after what happened last night.
The reason i want to be with my aunt is because she went through the same thing as me and would understand. She was raised in "the truth" but never got baptized and faded away. My grandparents don't shun her, only my Dad does. My grandma even told my dad that he was tearing the family apart, but of course he blamed it on her instead because he's a jerk.
Im not very close to my aunt anymore because of my dad but I'm trying to contact her through Facebook. She lives all the way in Iowa though and I live in Florida so its not like I can make a quick getaway but with some careful planning I'm hoping that I can move there when I turn 18. I don't feel bad about leaving my parents, I only feel guilty about leaving my three younger siblings. I'm sure some of them will leave eventually too, my brothers obviously dislike the meetings.
I'm almost done with my homeschooling ( I do an online program, so I get a diploma and everything) so I'm not going back to public school. As soon as I graduate I'm planning on doing an online vet tech course ( its only for two years so my parents don't completely dissaprove) so that when I go to Iowa I can get a decent job.
Anyways thanks for reading all of my random rants, its nice to have people who care. :)