Thanks everybody, I will try the exercise ( though it's so hot where I live). My parents told me that I can only live with them if I go to all the meetings an out in service 3 times a week, those are the house rules apparently. I can't legally move out yet, so I'm forced to be a jw. It irritates me that children have no rights when it comes to religion. :(
Anyways, I'm trying to look on the bright side. I haven't had any success with my aunt, (we aren't close and she's busy all the time) but it's OK. I've realized that I can't rely on my family members, I have to be independent. I'm thinking of moving somewhere ive never been before and starting a new life. :)