Thank you all so much for your help! Everyone here is so much more kind and understanding than any jw I have ever met.
Last night I gathered my courage and I told my father the truth, that I am not ready to be baptized and I'm only doing it to make him happy. He asked me why I wasn't ready, and I said I have too many doubts ( whether this is gods organization, governing body, 1914, overlapping generation ). He said we would study these topics over the next few weeks and then I can make my decision.
Anybody have any advice on how I can easily disprove these topics without sounding like an apostate? This is my big opportunity to possibly wake up my dad!!