All I can say is if this is the way you feel.....
My world doesn't work right without them.
then if you can not function with out them, then stay.....if in your heart you can really say you feel at peace with them, then don't feel guilty. Life may never be as you wish in the congregation with your condition. As they do not understand nor will they take the time to find out what AS is. But if you can be happy with the way things are, who are we to criticize you....Do what will bring you the most happiness. H4o