(((( Frezia )))) I am sorry to read of your loss. You may want to take things slowly regarding the religion, at least until you can get somewhat passed grieving over the death of your Dad.
Do you have any specific plans that you have thought of regarding leaving? Fading might be the best option for now sighting grief over the loss of your Dad as the reason. I hope you can escape with your family intact. Be good, be kind to yourself and those you love.