you have a huge chip on your shoulder because of verifiably bad things that have happened to you.
that doesnt reveal any intelligence on your part, and your attitude puts you RIGHT in line with them.
you ARE what you hate!
My grandfather drove the green bus in NYC for his whole working life. He got beat up by "niggers" he called them.
his only experience with blacks were these "niggers" - he was robbed and harrassed by them.
He applied his knowledge to an entire race due to his bad experiences.
my grandfather was racist.
you are just as bad.
I hope you die with some resolution, and not with this nastiness in your "soul".