Thanks for your responses. I appreciate that the issue of family relations came up.
The reason I'm still attending meetings is to keep up the front that everything's ok.
My father knows there's some questions and problems with doctrine in my mind.
What can you do when someone in your family is so loyal and devoted that their
only thought is unquestioning service to the WT?
I'm still a Christian. I haven't given up on my belief in God. This is different from
other people who may post here, but what we have in common is the realization
that the WT misrepresents the truth and gives people false hopes "within their
lifetime". But so many WT promises have gone by the wayside and instead of
admitting they led people on and gave them a false hope they turn around and
blame the very people they egged on by saying they "ran ahead" or they were
given to speculation.
I find it very disgusting that this "religious" corporation has so much control of
people's lives. It devastates me and I feel unable to do much about it. But I am
conscious of at least this much: I am mentally free of this Cult. And I hope one
day I will be physically and emotionally free too.