Holden,
I feel your pain. It is awkward asking people out, especially if your self-esteem is low. To this day I almost have to be hit over the head by a woman to get a clue that they are interested in me.
I wish the best in your endeavors.
JK
Posts by JRK
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20Talking to women
by Holden Caufield ini recently asking this women out who here has problems with women after being a jw.
i still do.
i will try to talk with with women..
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November Is The Cruelest Month
by JRK ini have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
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cog,
I have felt my own mortality for quite some time. I have had serious health issues in the past five years. Thank goodness for ObamaCare, or I most likely would have preceded her on "the conveyor belt of death." My big goal was to stay alive long enough to care for mom until her passing. I knew that my JW sisters would just throw her in a nursing home and I didn't want that for her. In fact, they were pushing for her to go to a nursing home when I was going through my surgeries, saying that it was in her best interest. I am glad I was able to achieve that goal.
I did have plans for my future, but they were dashed last month too. So now I am free to do whatever I want other than that. I just need to figure out what the new "that" is now.
JK
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November Is The Cruelest Month
by JRK ini have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
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nonjwspouse,
I agree that making new memories is the best way to cope with depressing times of the year. Like you, I am not there yet, as I am still going through things that are reminders of her. Next year perhaps.
JK
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November Is The Cruelest Month
by JRK ini have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
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ttdtt,
You said "life often just seems like a countdown to death." That is true, but I don't see it as a downside to leaving the religion. I find it easier to deal with being out. At least we can grieve like normal people, instead of faking happiness in a resurrection hope.
A friend once said to me that "it is the conveyor belt of death." We cannot avoid it but at least we can grieve without guilt.
JK
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November Is The Cruelest Month
by JRK ini have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
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zeb,
I have had times in my life that death seemed to be lurking at the door. A bunch of my friends died in automobile accidents in my teen years in a short span of time.
JK
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November Is The Cruelest Month
by JRK ini have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
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JRK
Was;
I grieve along with you and flipper. I am a 61-year-old orphan too. I am doing my best to endure, but right now it is just concentrating on the next right thing to do. Baby steps.
Flip,
I am glad that you had the opportunity to talk with my mother over the phone. She really should be beatified as a JW saint.
JK
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November Is The Cruelest Month
by JRK ini have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
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OTWO,
I am glad it is December now and can leave the pain of November behind. I am glad you are my friend and had the chance to meet her in real life. I am looking forward to seeing you this weekend.
CoCo, the poem you quote succinctly describes November in Indiana. Thank you for sharing it.
JK
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November Is The Cruelest Month
by JRK ini have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
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JRK
I have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away. It has reminded me of some of the reasons that I really hate November. This year has added to it obviously.
Thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early November. He was a very abusive parent when I was growing up. He would wake me in the middle of the night to either beat me or yell at me. At one point he took my bedroom door off so I could not get away from the abuse. I remember hiding in my closet to escape and hide from him.
But in his later years we had mended the relationship somewhat, and actually would do things like watch the World Series together. His heart was giving out, so I made peace with him. I am glad I did for both our sakes.
This November has been the worst with the passing of my mom. She was my rock that I could count on through thick and thin. I always knew she had my back.
Now she is gone, along with a special piece of my heart. She did the best she could for us children growing up in an abusive environment. I am glad that in her later years that I had the blessing of being able to care for her. She was one in a million, and I dedicate this song to her memory. As a friend once told me, they are never gone if they are still remembered. I will never forget the sweetest woman that ever lived.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XyS3Q3DmYFI
JK
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So my PIMO Younger Brother Tried To Kill Himself Today
by pale.emperor inwe all know that this cult will drive those trying to leave to desperate measures, and today by brother was very nearly one of those statistics.
he slashed his thigh with a kitchen knife and was bleeding out until he called the police.. i got a call on my way home from work from a police officer, coincidentally it was one of my old friends from school who's now a cop.
he told me my brother is in hospital after an attempted suicide and has lost some blood but will be ok. but i should get to the hospital as he's asking for me.
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JRK
Excellent job of standing up for your little brother! You were able to educate the doctors on the way elders are manipulative and overbearing. All medical professionals need to know the real abuses of the religion.
Well done!
JK
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Police Welfare Check
by JRK ini awoke in the middle of the night to banging on my door.
i went to the door half asleep and asked who was there.
i heard “police.” my dog was going crazy, so i slipped outside to talk to them.
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Well, I awoke from a nightmare tonight thinking that the police busted down my door. It was almost like the Watchtower's lovely video of the stormtroopers raiding the place where the dubs were hiding. I couldn't get back to sleep after that one!
I still have not heard from the person that called the police to check on me. I just love having my compound PTSD flashbacks. Thanks again, whoever you are.
KL