i have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
I am burning the candle to light her way. I chose the candle with the cardinal because she so loved to watch the cardinals eating the suet that I had in the tree outside the front window. She also loved the mountains and lived in the Smoky Mountains for a while before coming back home to Indiana. So I am glad they chose that scenic box for her.
JK
i have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
Diane,
I am sorry that your family is having so many health problems currently. The losses are what hurts the most.
Your husband does sound like an amazing man. I appreciate your kind words about me. I just did the best I could.
JK
i have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
Mom is back home with me tonight:
i have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
Ruby,
I brought her ashes home today. I will play it for her. It is going to be a tearful night.
JK
i awoke in the middle of the night to banging on my door.
i went to the door half asleep and asked who was there.
i heard “police.” my dog was going crazy, so i slipped outside to talk to them.
It is now over a week since the police came. The person that called them has still not contacted me. I believe it was malicious, and that I might need to get a temporary restraining order.
JK
i have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
Flip,
I don't exactly pray to my mother, but I do talk to her throughout the day and night ask her for direction and guidance. During the day I talk to her when her favorite bird comes to eat the suet cakes I have out. Mom loved the wild birds, especially one little woodpecker she nicknamed "Skunky." During the evenings I have been lighting a candle and talk to it. I have not had any experiences like you have yet but would welcome them.
It is just after midnight here, so I too will raise a glass on the anniversary of your mother's passing. Except mine will be a ginger ale.
JK
i recently asking this women out who here has problems with women after being a jw.
i still do.
i will try to talk with with women..
Holden,
I feel your pain. It is awkward asking people out, especially if your self-esteem is low. To this day I almost have to be hit over the head by a woman to get a clue that they are interested in me.
I wish the best in your endeavors.
JK
i have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
cog,
I have felt my own mortality for quite some time. I have had serious health issues in the past five years. Thank goodness for ObamaCare, or I most likely would have preceded her on "the conveyor belt of death." My big goal was to stay alive long enough to care for mom until her passing. I knew that my JW sisters would just throw her in a nursing home and I didn't want that for her. In fact, they were pushing for her to go to a nursing home when I was going through my surgeries, saying that it was in her best interest. I am glad I was able to achieve that goal.
I did have plans for my future, but they were dashed last month too. So now I am free to do whatever I want other than that. I just need to figure out what the new "that" is now.
JK
i have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
nonjwspouse,
I agree that making new memories is the best way to cope with depressing times of the year. Like you, I am not there yet, as I am still going through things that are reminders of her. Next year perhaps.
JK
i have been going through old papers and photographs since my mother passed away.
it has reminded me of some of the reasons that i really hate november.
this year has added to it obviously.. thirty-four years ago, my father passed away in early november.
ttdtt,
You said "life often just seems like a countdown to death." That is true, but I don't see it as a downside to leaving the religion. I find it easier to deal with being out. At least we can grieve like normal people, instead of faking happiness in a resurrection hope.
A friend once said to me that "it is the conveyor belt of death." We cannot avoid it but at least we can grieve without guilt.
JK
