Born in 1970, 4th generation JW and parents who were loyal to but could also think on their own.
My father always said, the show goes on, so he had a respectable community job, advisor of the City counsel of the town. And buying ald building houses for us. We were on the move.
What I remember is the many conversations at home about the other witnesses. Not about doctrine but about people. And their strange behaviour.
I remember my survival modus in the organization. At school, college and work believe was never a topic. Became MS at 18 and did public talks at sunday.
It never captivated me at all. It was an empty shell.
Survival modus started at a very early age. Avoiding discussions. Take no stand. Letting it flow. Neutral. Feeling an outsider.
Now I know that my JW youth was not that bad at all. We were not indoctrineted and were making plans years ahead. One thing was not good: all the loose of time, we could invested it in better things. And because it was not done to go to University, I had to start with this when I was 35.
My original question was: do you recognize this?
G.