I can appreciate all of the advice. No we did not have intercourse. We did go to afew important stages of foreplay, however. I don't know if he would leave the JW for me. I don't really want him to. That would be the same as me joining FOR him. If he wants to leave, it should be on his own terms and I would do the same. Apparantly, after speaking to him last night, the reason he wasn't speaking to me was not about religion or beliefs. It was about an argument we had, and how it made him feel. I often wonder how devout he is. We have drinks every night (sometimes to excess) and he started smoking again recently (I am a smoker). He has an energy about him that I want around me all the time. He makes comments about WHEN we are married, carrying me over the threshold and WHEN we have sex. After our conversation yesterday, I almost fell off the fence (literally) and he said something about a story to tell the grandchildren. So I think he wants the same things as me, but only time will tell how that will happen.
I know almost everyone told me to run away as fast as I could. I can't, or won't, do that. The person he is is too good to let get away. Remember, that all of the ex-JW that responded, were once not ex. You were right there with him and held the same beliefs. Something, or someone, gave you the courage to leave. Maybe I am that for him. I am willing to stick around and find out. I am not a religious person, and I wouldn't become a JW JUST to be with him. I know that I enjoy celebrating my Birthday and Thanksgiving and national holidays (X-Mas and Easter and those other "religious" holidays never had much meaning for me in the sense of commercialism). I love to celebrate Mother's and Father's day with my parents. So joining will have to be MY decision, and MINE alone.
I will keep you all posted. I would say "wish me luck" but, well, you know. :)
