Missing my first convention was AWESOME. I thoroughly enjoyed the peace and quiet. I watched 'Matrix' and 'Terminator' movies, drank frozen coffee drinks, played arcade games, ate magnificent seafood, and did whatever I wanted. It was such a relief. It helped me to see that despite how they say 'there's nothing out there', the truth is there's nothing in their religion that is worth holding onto. I felt more peace being out than I ever felt at their conventions.
These events (conventions/assemblies) are designed to rewrite your thinking. By the time it's over, your true self is suppressed and wound up tight. Did you ever take note of the extreme things they said at these conventions? Your true self could easily identify that, I hope, and when you realize that they want you to be extreme, to be closed-minded and to give up all that you are in exchange for a neverending stream of empty promises, you'll understand you're making the right choice.
Honestly, it's three days of your life. You don't want to waste it on something you don't believe in. Your life belongs to you now. Live it.
--sd-7