Thanks Snowbird! Yeah I have alot of time on my hands now. My season job ended so I'm trying to look at all the posts and catch up on people. I'm a house wife now and have been working on the garage and baby's room. I love being home. And even though I keep busy while working I still had this and everyone on here at the back of my mind.
Butterflyleia85
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I'm back! How is everyone today?!
by Butterflyleia85 insd-7, casper, isaacaustin, alltimejeff, bluecanary, chalam, snowbird, flipper, etc.. i haven't been on here for a while and just wanted to say hello.
share some news.... i'm pregnant with my first baby boy.
i haven't been going to the meetings very well recently just cause since the baby i hate living a fake life while having the responsibility of being a respectable mother.. my grandmother on my dad's side along with the rest of that side of the family wants nothing to do with me until i am a jw again and i know she still loves me and still thinks of me just has a bad way of showing it because of the shunning rule.. my jw mother and jw grandma on my mom's side are the only ones i will allow to see my baby freely because they know what true love is and still talk to me and treat me normal.. my sister i don't know what to think but i pretend she just lives to far away and has her own life.
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I'm back! How is everyone today?!
by Butterflyleia85 insd-7, casper, isaacaustin, alltimejeff, bluecanary, chalam, snowbird, flipper, etc.. i haven't been on here for a while and just wanted to say hello.
share some news.... i'm pregnant with my first baby boy.
i haven't been going to the meetings very well recently just cause since the baby i hate living a fake life while having the responsibility of being a respectable mother.. my grandmother on my dad's side along with the rest of that side of the family wants nothing to do with me until i am a jw again and i know she still loves me and still thinks of me just has a bad way of showing it because of the shunning rule.. my jw mother and jw grandma on my mom's side are the only ones i will allow to see my baby freely because they know what true love is and still talk to me and treat me normal.. my sister i don't know what to think but i pretend she just lives to far away and has her own life.
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sd-7, Casper, isaacaustin, AllTimeJeff, bluecanary, Chalam, snowbird, flipper, ETC.
I haven't been on here for a while and just wanted to say hello. Share some news...
I'm pregnant with my first baby boy. I haven't been going to the meetings very well recently just cause since the baby I hate living a fake life while having the responsibility of being a respectable mother.
My grandmother on my dad's side along with the rest of that side of the family wants nothing to do with me until I am a JW again and I know she still loves me and still thinks of me just has a bad way of showing it because of the shunning rule.
My JW mother and JW grandma on my mom's side are the only ones I will allow to see my baby freely because they know what true love is and still talk to me and treat me normal.
My sister I don't know what to think but I pretend she just lives to far away and has her own life. She has hurt me but this time I stand my ground now and will not put effert in showing my love as she shows me. I don't text her, call her, or write her... basicly how she treats me. I heard from mom that my sister wanted to visit last thurs. but I had plans (before I would have canceled just to see her) and now haven't heard about her visiting me since then... I'm not going to bring it up but act like I don't care to see her... basicly the way she treats me.
I basicly am able to move on from my toxic family and I feel ok about it. Yes we were so close but the religion and my "unforgivable" sins scar that. I have to move on, being honest with myself and happy with what I have for my unborn son! I'm very excited and happy!
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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Ok Wow I just found out I am 16 weeks pregnant!! ... I have alot on my mind.
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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Well I guess i will say good bye again for a few cause I have to go back to School (yelp I decided to go back to College too and I have awesome part time job now... when I was unemployeed I use to be on this site all the time... Miss you guys! )
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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thanks Snowbird!
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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When I was a JW we would put an hour in regardless if we did or not just to stay active... ha I think I can lie and do that again. JW now in days... wow it's different... as I branched out I remember some JW get drunk do drugs etc... it's not all what it's cracked out to be. They just stay in secret. Which I'm not that bad that's why I confessed in the past everything I ever did. I'm a pretty honest person but what you all taught me as well as my husband I shouldn't have to answer to Elders but to God. Even when I get back in I still will most likely not associate myself with the Witnesses just because I have a life and love it. I just want my respect I deserve from my family... the whole reson why I got dfed in the first place removed! On Your Way Out...It's something I could never do- kiss the asses of 3 elders and pretend to agree with the doctrine. I could sit silently and take notes for meetings to get back, but the rest- no way. Yelp that's the plan.
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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Thanks Wannabefree, Grayneal, Heaven, and The Listener btw. ;)
Carla... Yes I know and that is why I love him so so much for understanding. Sorry if this seems selfish but really I promise him I will never ever let the religion come between us! I promise.
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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Notverylikely... haha it makes sence if you were me. lol
Mary my family live kinda far from me if they were in the same hall or same city it would probably be harder but this will allow them to know I'm in but not know to much about my life. It's a new hall to so I only barely know some of the ppl at the hall here.
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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Well Mary I plan on fading once I'm in I'm in and wont 'sin' (to my knowledge anyway). If I seem like an apostate at least I will be DFed with a little mor dignity because I stood up for what I beleive.
I have the books and you guys that will be my reminder. Captives of a Concept is sitting right beside me... Same with the words from Steven Hassen and Ray F.
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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Carvin yes I understand, and thank you. I was DFed once before and went back in. I know the feeling of being welcomed then treated as like I am still Dfed or something. I kinda was thinking to that hopefully this hall will be different sence it's not the hall I was brought up in and had friends sence I was five that knows all my business. But anyways I have Eric now and his family so it wont bother me either way I know now I will always have family.