I accept that punishment for my sins was nessary and in the case of disfellowshipped I deserved it in the eyes of being a JW, but it was my first and I was young. After being DFed and getting back in, I decided it was the worst punishment ever. I never realized how much I needed my family and that I would really be shunned for a year! I was ready by 6 months to get back in... but they refused to let me in and I grow really depressed. Finally it lead to self abuse and to greater sins unimagable. I got back in but it was to late I was now consumed by a whole different problem. And after being in I then felt I was progressing all over again yet they wanted me to alreally have that taken care of before getting in and when I sinned I was caught and DFed once again. This time I decided not to get depressed but see the good in me, that I'm better then how I was treated, and had to leave the thinking of JW before truely healing myself. I needed the pride they striped away from me and I needed to feel ok with my life before I ended it. Meeting my husband, reading self help books, come on here as a support, etc. has helped more then you know. So do I thank the Jehovah's Witnesses who abandoned me because of my sins or for the people who truely saw me as an imperfect human that needed help?!
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Why You Loyal Witnesses Should Oppose Disfellowshipping
by metatron inone night you are driving down a dark road.
another car swerves into your lane and hits you head on.
you wake up days later and discover you are paralyzed.
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Where's Snowbird?
by serenitynow! indid i miss something?
where are you syl?
i've been missing your southern spiciness!
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Wow I think OUCH is an understatement!
spiter bit?
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I'm back! How is everyone today?!
by Butterflyleia85 insd-7, casper, isaacaustin, alltimejeff, bluecanary, chalam, snowbird, flipper, etc.. i haven't been on here for a while and just wanted to say hello.
share some news.... i'm pregnant with my first baby boy.
i haven't been going to the meetings very well recently just cause since the baby i hate living a fake life while having the responsibility of being a respectable mother.. my grandmother on my dad's side along with the rest of that side of the family wants nothing to do with me until i am a jw again and i know she still loves me and still thinks of me just has a bad way of showing it because of the shunning rule.. my jw mother and jw grandma on my mom's side are the only ones i will allow to see my baby freely because they know what true love is and still talk to me and treat me normal.. my sister i don't know what to think but i pretend she just lives to far away and has her own life.
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Just in case anyone posted on my other post about going back... obviously I changed my mind after learning about my pregnancy and honestly I didn't know people caught the last post I made about being pregnant on that page and thank you for the kind comments and advice people made on that one. It kinda reasured me I made the right decision, because I knew it would have been hard but I was willing to do that for the relationship of my family for my child... I just didn't know my child was already in my stomach! haha http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/198556/4/Alot-has-Changed-and-Im-going-BACK
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I'm back! How is everyone today?!
by Butterflyleia85 insd-7, casper, isaacaustin, alltimejeff, bluecanary, chalam, snowbird, flipper, etc.. i haven't been on here for a while and just wanted to say hello.
share some news.... i'm pregnant with my first baby boy.
i haven't been going to the meetings very well recently just cause since the baby i hate living a fake life while having the responsibility of being a respectable mother.. my grandmother on my dad's side along with the rest of that side of the family wants nothing to do with me until i am a jw again and i know she still loves me and still thinks of me just has a bad way of showing it because of the shunning rule.. my jw mother and jw grandma on my mom's side are the only ones i will allow to see my baby freely because they know what true love is and still talk to me and treat me normal.. my sister i don't know what to think but i pretend she just lives to far away and has her own life.
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Thank you so much Loz! I'm really excited.
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I'm back! How is everyone today?!
by Butterflyleia85 insd-7, casper, isaacaustin, alltimejeff, bluecanary, chalam, snowbird, flipper, etc.. i haven't been on here for a while and just wanted to say hello.
share some news.... i'm pregnant with my first baby boy.
i haven't been going to the meetings very well recently just cause since the baby i hate living a fake life while having the responsibility of being a respectable mother.. my grandmother on my dad's side along with the rest of that side of the family wants nothing to do with me until i am a jw again and i know she still loves me and still thinks of me just has a bad way of showing it because of the shunning rule.. my jw mother and jw grandma on my mom's side are the only ones i will allow to see my baby freely because they know what true love is and still talk to me and treat me normal.. my sister i don't know what to think but i pretend she just lives to far away and has her own life.
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I need to read to the baby more but I need to get baby or kids books I feel wierd reading him my People magizine or my Fitness magizine. ha
Yknot, hahaha that's funny! I wonder who my son will take after me or him... hopefully the best of the both of us... if I would hate to see him having anxiety like his dad and starts being clumsy like me. Hehe hopefully he will be friendly and fun like the both of us and have his dad's brains and my tanable skin. hehe
Chalam, yeah I'm so excited to watch him grow up! The best part I get to be there to help him! My husbands agreed I can take on a part time evening job so we will always be home with our son! Yay! :)
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Alot has Changed and I'm going BACK
by Butterflyleia85 ini bet people has forgotten me but thats ok because i know they have helped me a lot on here.. .
anyways i think the last time i been on here i mentioned my jw sister not going to my wedding.
for those that do remember my story, the wedding was beautiful on the beach in key west, fl!
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OMG I'm suprised people caught that last comment about being pregnant on this post i made about going back because I logged on and got off and didn't even know it posted. I just was in shock and decided to post it. Anywho, I'm not working now so i can read all through these posts!
Wow thank you so much for the kind congradulations.
And for the other comments, it kinda made me laugh... but wow people got their comments that's for sure.
If it makes some feel better after the baby I reconsided going back because if I was back in and then we tried to have a baby it would have been alot easier to fade out but now I have a baby and it seem complicating and after reading the comments it just conferms that even more!
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I'm back! How is everyone today?!
by Butterflyleia85 insd-7, casper, isaacaustin, alltimejeff, bluecanary, chalam, snowbird, flipper, etc.. i haven't been on here for a while and just wanted to say hello.
share some news.... i'm pregnant with my first baby boy.
i haven't been going to the meetings very well recently just cause since the baby i hate living a fake life while having the responsibility of being a respectable mother.. my grandmother on my dad's side along with the rest of that side of the family wants nothing to do with me until i am a jw again and i know she still loves me and still thinks of me just has a bad way of showing it because of the shunning rule.. my jw mother and jw grandma on my mom's side are the only ones i will allow to see my baby freely because they know what true love is and still talk to me and treat me normal.. my sister i don't know what to think but i pretend she just lives to far away and has her own life.
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Wow awesome first time I got really good advice like that! Ok I'll try it! Thanks Yknot!
(I'm going back and reading my last post didn't realize I got responce about the pregnancy on that one... http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/198556/3/Alot-has-Changed-and-Im-going-BACK)
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I'm back! How is everyone today?!
by Butterflyleia85 insd-7, casper, isaacaustin, alltimejeff, bluecanary, chalam, snowbird, flipper, etc.. i haven't been on here for a while and just wanted to say hello.
share some news.... i'm pregnant with my first baby boy.
i haven't been going to the meetings very well recently just cause since the baby i hate living a fake life while having the responsibility of being a respectable mother.. my grandmother on my dad's side along with the rest of that side of the family wants nothing to do with me until i am a jw again and i know she still loves me and still thinks of me just has a bad way of showing it because of the shunning rule.. my jw mother and jw grandma on my mom's side are the only ones i will allow to see my baby freely because they know what true love is and still talk to me and treat me normal.. my sister i don't know what to think but i pretend she just lives to far away and has her own life.
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Hehe why thank you Yknot! Yeah I heard diapers are so expencive but then again I shouldn't buy to many newborn dipers cause they will start getting into regular diapers. hehe Oh and I finally get to catch up on reading my baby books, I have the most famous one "What to expect when you're expecting!" hehe
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"What Would Jesus Buy???" On Sundance Channel in about 3 hours...
by ziddina inwell, sundance channel has done it again!!!
the people who brought you "worlds apart", the danish movie based on a young jehovah's witness girl's disfellowshipment and shunning, are bringing you another good movie.... this one, however, is much more humorous!!!.
"what would jesus buy???
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I didn't know there was a movie about a JW girl disfellowshipped... is it a movie I could get on netflix, is this an American movie that I can even get here? "Worlds Apart" is it called? hmm I'm going to look it up.
How are you Ziddina by the way? :)
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My Soul Is Deeply Grieved
by snowbird inhttp://sports.espn.go.com/ncf/news/story?id=5765214&campaign=rss&source=espnheadlines.
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lol wow this title caught me off gard for sure! lol On the topic of Football I went to Indianapolis Colts game at Lucas Oil Stadium for the first time last weekend!! It was awesome!! And Colts won! Yay!!