AwSnap

Joined

• started 73 topics
• posted 782 times   see topics posted on
• send a message

Posts by AwSnap

• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  good idea!
• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  

  I sent this photo to our sisters. No response from the jw mentioned here. Grrrrr. I may bomb the other sisters with new baby photos, but I'll definitely not send many at all to the one sis. Maybe just occasionally....to jab her in the gut. lol
• 
  20

  I recently said something pretty outrageous on this forum, and no one called me on it.

  by SixofNine in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  .

  the truth is, dingos are never cool.

  canis lupus lookin' muerrfukkahs.....

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  Ohhhhhh, I'm callin' you on it.

  No, really, Im callin you. check your phone
• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  Thank you everyone . Recovery is a bitch, and I didnt even have a c-section. But once I heal, I think it'll be worth it. And everytime she does a goofy little smile, my world becomes even better.
• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  UPDATE:

  My little munchkin was born on Thursday afternoon, after 36 hours of labor. I will be sure to remind her of that for the rest of her life but right now I am just enjoying every little thing about her. I didnt realize I had so many kisses to give. My younger sis sent me a text that said "looks like she's got your cute nose ;-) " ....I'll just take what I can get from her. I've got too many blessings right now to get upset about petty things.

  
• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  Of Course, Found Sheep. That's the stereotypical response. Ive been through that reasoning too. "But YOU'RE the one who left jehovah".

  Actually, its been quite awhile...but I remember hearing that many times in the past. My response is always the same: "I assure you that I have not left God, nor has he left me. I simply do not believe your beliefs are godly."
• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  Thanks . Im still a little bummed about it. But I *do* have some very close friends, and my baby shower was a huge success. More than anything, Im excited for the baby to get here, and Im thankful to have a hubby that *used* to be a jw (so he knows about all the craziness). You're all the help I needed. Thanks again JWN
• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  A baby quilt *is* indeed a lovely gift, but it not a substitute for the relationship you want with your sister. It is not a substitute for love, even though it was clearly made with love. It can't replace the phone conversations you would love to have with your sister every day, or being able to hug her, or pour your heart out to her and have her listen to you and console you and tell you everything will be all right. On some level, I bet it feels like a knife in the heart to have to look at that quilt, knowing that she'd rather give you a token of her love rather than lovingly be in your family's life.

  Thanks Scully. You hit the nail on the head. This is EXACTLY what Im thinking & feeling. Seeing that quilt brings back the sad & bitter feelings.... feelings Im usually so good at sticking in the back of my mind so that I can actually enjoy life and blessings that I *do* have. Its all about perspective though....and I'll try to change that so that my baby will know that "Aunty truly loves and cares for her" even though she can't show it in the way we'd like. Thank you everyone else for the kind words. I needed it.
• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  MamaLove, YES! I can soooo relate. a few weeks back, I forwarded an email from our "worldly" aunt who wasnt sure of everyone's emails. It had something to do with news about our grandmother. And I got a brief response from the lil sis: "Thank you for the information." That was it!

  We *were* friends on FB, but I made a comment about 2 Thanksgivings ago that made her feel threatened, even though it was something about how much I love the meaning of Thanksgiving. She took it as a personal insult to their religion. Also, she's told me in the past (one of our last, real conversations a couple years ago) that she feels like I use the phrase "unconditional love" too often. Ummmmm, ok. whatever.

  Its been about 15 years since I faded. I moved away, my records were transferred. I moved a couple more times, and I think my records have been lost. (WOOT WOOT!). I moved back to my hometown about 9 years ago & refuse to move my life again because of what they might think. My first few years away from the jw's was filled with anger-filled comments. But now I just want to live my life and show respect for other's beliefs (and visa versa hopefully). All the jw's around here know that I will never return, but most still smile and talk to me normally (as normally as a jw talks to a 'worldly' person). I've actually heard a bunch of jw's say they didnt even realize I was baptized. lol

  Abiblestudent, thank you. I agree. With that email from above, I included pictures of me opening up the quilt at my baby shower.

  ThinkAboutIt, I just heard that you are going to a mutual friend's house for dinner this evening, and I told her to feel free to let you know who I am

  GL, thank you. Very sound advice.

  Mummatron....I am SO sORRY
• 
  51

  I need support please

  by AwSnap in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for the most part, i am able to understand how my family treats me.

  i was a jw for 20 years...since birth.

  i used to shun people.

  1. 
  2. 
  3. 
• 

  AwSnap

  It is going to break my heart if communication/NONcommunication keeps going on like this. It is my opinion that
  this is totally your choice. If so, I have to respect that. But its driving me crazy.

  I dropped by Mom's yesterday because I needed to borrow some of her foam for our couch. I was pleasantly surprised that ______ was there and that she remembers me. I also happened to have my camera in my purse, so I snapped a shot but then felt guilty & hoped you wouldn't be angry or upset that I took our picture together.

  And I am totally assuming, since I haven't spoken to Dad after the fact...but I gave him some maternity pictures to give to you and I am assuming he gave them to you. It was SO disappointing that I did not hear a word about them from you. I am also disappointed that you have not been there for me, except for in a "professional"-type way during this pregnancy. I know that you care...but it feels otherwise many times.

  I just don't know what you want or expect (or what you DON'T want). Are you hoping to treat me like the way you treat our "worldly" relatives? Like in a professional manner? Do you tell people that you have a sister who is not in 'The Truth'? Or that you have an apostate sister? I feel frustrated. And I don't understand why we can't have a sisterly relationship. You don't agree with some things that I choose to do in my life, and visa versa. But that doesn't keep other jw's from associating with me. My head doesn't spin around and I don't host devil parties.

  I love you. Please email when you get the chance.

  This is an email that I sent her about a week ago...still haven't heard back. I kind of regret sending it...but I don't think I put anything too crazy there. I appreciate what you all have said. I think her husband has a LOT to do with why she won't associate with me. Its just so frustrating.

  I wouldn't have the first clue as to how to create & sew a quilt. She's pretty crafty, but I heard it took her a very long time to get it done for me & the baby. You all are right....she made it with love, and I shouldn't return it. I guess I just needed to vent for a minute. Thanks