Welcome Butyoucanneverleave.
Many here have been through similar and will understand - I'm glad you found us.
Many here will confirm there is definitely hope and a better future for us whose eyes have opened.
Yes it is initially heartbreaking to see our favourite religion for what it really is.
And the Watchtower excels at ruining families without the families realising. Such is the power of propaganda - just ask Hitler.
Best wishes on JWC and your future
Fernando