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  Just worn out

  by EmptyInside in

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  i thought it best i stay a lurker.

  it's just right now, i'm going through some doubts and just plain discouraged.

  sometimes, trying to do everything just wears me out, and i feel like i'm suffocating.

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  EmptyInside

  Sorry,I'm bringing back this old thread. It was my first post almost two years ago. I still remember how helpless I felt typing that.

  I'm still touched by the response I received. I miss a couple of the posters on here,like AllTimeJeff,and Stephen.

  I'm at a much healthier state of mind now at this point and time. I realize all the possibilities that are before me. Yes,I still have good days and bad days,sometimes the thought crosses my mind that I wish I could go back to my blissful ignorance. But,reading my first post helps me see how unhappy I was.

  I still have goals that I'm working on,and it's a process for me,because I can be resistant to change. Then,too,I no longer blame all of my hang-ups and problems on being brought up a Witness. I think some of it has a lot to do with insecurities and fear of failure. I'd probably be that way no matter what religion I professed.

  One thing is that I am no longer depressed at conventions,because I just stopped going,lol. I'm no longer interested in a JW man. We wouldn't have anything in common anymore. That is so freeing like you wouldn't believe.

  But,I'm grateful for this site. I think if I would have continued on the same year after year,I'd be a shell of a person and totally lost.

  Thank you.
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  If you had controlling parents

  by mrsjones5 in

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  ten signs you may have had controlling parents.

  if your parents were controlling, click here for helpful resources.

  if your parents still try to control you, click here for helpful resources.

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  EmptyInside

  I must say my mother gave me pretty much freedom,and my dad was just plain apathetic. It may have had something to do with the fact that I'm the youngest,and they were just worn out by the time they got to me,lol.
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  Blondie's Comments You Will Not Hear at the 05-29-2011 WT Study (JEREMIAH)

  by blondie in

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  1, 2. why is jehovahs keeping awake associated.

  message to nations and kingdoms.

  people today appreciate what about the preaching.

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  EmptyInside

  Thanks for answering my question Lunatic Faith. I blocked so much out.

  Yes,1984 didn't sound quite right about the year of peace,but I remember that particular Watchtower.
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  Blondie's Comments You Will Not Hear at the 05-29-2011 WT Study (JEREMIAH)

  by blondie in

  1. jw
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  1, 2. why is jehovahs keeping awake associated.

  message to nations and kingdoms.

  people today appreciate what about the preaching.

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  EmptyInside

  I have a question. I keep seeing 1994 referenced here as a significant date for the Witnesses. What did I miss? I was around then,and I don't remember any special declaration that year.

  Is 1984 mentioned because that supposedly was the year of peace? I remember the Watchtower showing all the religions of the world praying for world peace.
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  Do the Harold Campings of the world make witnesses question their own beliefs?

  by dgp in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  now that harold camping has been proven wrong again, er, the rapture is taking place at another date because he is an imperfect man, one question that comes to my mind is whether this kind of fiascos ever make active jehovah's witness connect the dots and realize they have been deceived as well.. also, i wonder if active witnesses ever get to think that if unbelievers were right about not believing camping, maybe they are also right about something else?

  perhaps relying on reason is not that misguided after all?.

  i would love to see your opinions on this.. .

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  Sadly,very few will see the similiarities. I mentioned to one Witness about Camping saying it was invisible. She said she had heard that,but I could tell she didn't think anything of it. It is mind boggling.

  When,I still was mentally in,these kinds of things did bother me. And I would have to come up with ways to get around my disquieting thoughts.
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  I talked the first time in 20 years to a non-JW and need a divorce...

  by Intel in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  this is very difficult to write (forgive me for any spelling mistake, i am not a native english speaker).. i cannot tell my complete story on this board - i eventually will, once i have broken the last "link in the chain" that has kept me captive to the borg.

  i can't tell my story, because.....basically i will be known.....as a more or less "famous" jw..... i have been lurking this site for many years, wrote here under another name - this eventually was found out and i had to do "damage containment".

  i had to "go back" and tow the party line....all my family (extended and close) are witnesses, all my "friends" and even work & business relationships are jw.

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  EmptyInside

  I'm sorry you're going through this. My circumstances are a bit different,but I have chosen to fade quietly away for sake of family.

  In the process,there are good days and bad days. And on the good days,it's because we have finally started to think for ourselves. And on the bad days,we feel trapped and feel overwhelmed at the thought of starting our lives all over again.

  I really have no great advice other than what you have already received from the above posters. But,know,that you are not alone in your journey. And I wish you the best.
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  Can we get Jerry Springer on the case of Jehovahs Witness

  by Star tiger in

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  this man seems to get to the nub of most problems, and as a jewish man, i think he could be a way to a mainstream audience, it seems to me that despite all our petty differences we are all preaching to the converted, the majority of us hate the jw philosophy, how can we warn people of the terrible damage this cult can do to the individual and the community!.

  star tiger.

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  EmptyInside

  Well,I know of many situations among Witnesses that belonged on the "Jerry Springer Show". There was even a fight in the parking lot after the meeting.
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  Kingdom Hall Librarys : Can you still Veiw Older Publications ?eg:Russells,Rutherfords books ?? or even books from the ~50s

  by smiddy in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i`m just curious if such books as "life everlasting in freedom of the sons of god " " let your will be done on earth" etc.

  are still available in the kingdom hall libraries and if they are then that should be a wake up call to all jehovah`s witnesses.. if they are not then that should be an even bigger wake up call to all jehovah`s witnesses.

  the bible has never been altered in 2000 years under the direction of holy spirit.

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  EmptyInside

  Yes,my hall has a lot of Russell's old books,pyramids and all. lol. It's funny that it shows his original calculation of 606 B.C.E. and someone marked in red ink beside it,607 B.C.E.
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  Did you ever shun someone close? How did you feel?

  by jean-luc picard in

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  2. friends

  how does a jw feel when he "has" to shun someone he likes/loves?.

  during the time i was in, i shunned people.

  but as i didn't like them, it was no problem.. but now, i'm trying to understand how my family might really feel.. (i presume here, of course, that they do "like/love me".).

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  EmptyInside

  Yes,I shunned my best friend after she was disfellowshipped. It broke my heart,but I felt loyalty to Jehovah should come first. And I was also angry at my friend,because I felt it was her choice that ended our friendship.

  I have since reunited with her of sorts. Of course,it will never be like it was,and there are many years in between that we missed sharing our lives with each other.

  Fortunately,she forgives me and understands why I did shun her.
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  The Watchtower Penitentiary

  by stuckinamovement in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  learning the truth about the watchtower society can be very painful for a number of reasons.

  first, it is so disconcerting to realize that the core of your existence and the foundations of your beliefs are false that it can throw you for a real loop.

  as witnesses we are so confident in all of the answers we have been given, to questions that we never asked, that we mentally put ourselves up on a pedestal above the masses of poor, blind, wicked humanity.

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  EmptyInside

  Excellent post,I've been wandering the corridors for some times now,but every now and then,I step outside of it,and freedom is calling!

  But, this describes it all perfectly.