Jwsjw hi there! We've never met ( I'm a prisoner of mother England actually) and I just wanted to say that I'm a exJW reddit regular and time and again we hear of jw's who are either youngsters reluctant to get baptised or are baptised publishers/servants/pioneers/elders and thinking about leaving. When they are open about doubting the Bible as the inerrant word of God they often have no problems whatsoever with the Org and or elders etc. It's just classed as " having doubts" and seen as (almost) understandable. However, if one questions the Slave as God's mouthpiece, well, that's apostasy and judicial action is very likely.
This is my experience, anyway, I'm happy to know it seems to have been yours, too. I'm also really glad to know you have a profession and means to care for yourself as, sadly, so many have been made to leave full time service with nothing to fall back on recently.