Hello rolliepollie, welcome to the forum.
I see no evidence of any sort of deity.
1 - The history of life on earth could not be better designed to maximise suffering.
2 - 'Natural evil' makes it utterly impossible that a loving and powerful god exists.
3 - If a deity exists he has taken great pains to remain completely hidden.
4 - There is nothing about the physical world that can't be better explained without resorting to the supernatural .