Posts by MsDucky

I have four daughters and the twins are the Witnesses. I disassociated myself about a year or so after I got baptized; but I still believed in that stuff. I pretty much raised my daughters to believe in Jehovah, not the organization. The oldest and the youngest didn't care about it, but the twins did. The oldest is the only one that had to go to meetings with me. The twins were just babies and didn't know if they were there or not.

I still was indoctrinated or an apologist for 18 years. Although, I did celebrate the girl's birthdays. The twins are full-blown witnesses now. There's nothing that I can do about that. I had to kick them out when they started dictating to me how to live in my own house (do not watch this movie, you can't hang that on your door, pulling their dad's army stickers off the car, getting on me about smoking, wanting me to go to the meetings, etc...).

I'm starting to feel more and more uncomfortable around them. I don't know if this is one of the stages of grief or what? At first, I was so very depressed about losing them to the religion; now it's like I don't want to put up with them anymore. When they come over, they act like they're doing us a favor or something. We have grown distant, they almost seem like strangers to me now.

I put on my Facebook page that I'm an agnostic. I got tired of all that Jesus stuff that some people were putting up; so if they didn't get any response they'd know why...this is leading to an old exjw friend (We were both still dubs at the time.) finding me on Facebook. She has always been a trouble maker and a gossiper. She's a Jesus, Jesus, Jesus addict now. Anyway, I started wondering if she's been blabbing her mouth about my religious status because for some reason the twins have gone back to where they won't tell me if they're leaving town or the country or not. One is going to the Dominican Republic again. I just found out from my youngest daughter, who happened to call the twin when she was packing.

The youngest invited them over for supper this evening, which made me angry. She really doesn't understand the witnesses dynamics about eating with an apostate. The twin was like well I don't know if I can make it and so on and so forth. I had to tell the youngest to not do that because it made me uncomfortable and it made them uncomfortable. I told her if they wanted to come over on their own accord that this was fine. . .but the eating part. . .well you know how that is.

Yes, I screwed up my twins; but the rest is on them. I'm starting to get stronger about them moving on. I think? Time will tell.