Lostwun

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  I've Disassociated. It's getting announced tomorrow.

  by Heathen Dan in

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  2. friends

  this is my first post to this site, im pale.emperor's brother:).

  first of all, i've left being a jw in june.

  since then my family have tried to convince me it's "the truth" and force me to go back even though it's my own decision.

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  Lostwun

  Glad you are doing better and welcome to the site! You’re in good company here.

  Lostwun
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  Do You Feels That Your Life Was Ruined Because of Ypur JW Experience?

  by minimus in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i know that some are upset because of the time lost because of ever having been a witness.

  have you moved on as an ex jw or are you stil devastated because of your past jw lige?.

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  Lostwun

  I would say that the cult played a big part on affecting my psyche growing up as a JW. Now at this point in my life I've literally had to "unteach" myself all the things that was instilled in me being raised in it such as:

  -Not feeling good enough,

  -Striving for perfection and feeling like I constantly have to do more to prove my worth

  -Saying yes even when I didn't want to. Fear of saying no and having to deal with the repercussions

  -Being Submissive and obedient to any man or accepting whatever words came out of a mans mouth as final say

  -Living in Fear

  -Denying my true self and Identity and living for the approval of others

  These are areas of my personal life that i feel The WT organization has played a major role in messing me up. Now being away from the cult for 2 years I have to constantly fight to correct this way of thinking when old habits or that way of thinking tries to creep back in.
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  Is this life all there is?

  by Fisherman in

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  what do you sincerely think?

  do you nurture any hope?.

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  Lostwun

  I guess we all won't know what there is until we drop dead.

  make peace with that. I have
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  Things You Still Agree With The JWs On

  by Fred Franztone in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  aside from obvious things that most people agree on, like theft being wrong and the importance of family, i can't think of a single thing i agree with the jws on, nothing that's specific to their religion anyway.

  do you have any?.

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  Lostwun

  haha I totally agree flip. back to nap time for me as well zzzzz nothing to see here lol
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  Is it just me or are the street sign, road,car verification excessive?

  by nonjwspouse in

  1. forum
  2. suggestions

  i must go through six of new verification screens on average before verifying.

  i seriously try harder and harder, i don't know if we include the tiny little piece of sign or not.

  i have done both,and still get another screen.

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  Lostwun

  OMG I seriously was just about to make a topic about this right now!! LOL hahaha nojwspouse you beat me to the punch! lol Yes it is seriously annoying as F***

  Simon can you do something about this please? thanks
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  Things You Still Agree With The JWs On

  by Fred Franztone in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  aside from obvious things that most people agree on, like theft being wrong and the importance of family, i can't think of a single thing i agree with the jws on, nothing that's specific to their religion anyway.

  do you have any?.

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  Lostwun

  not a damn thing
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  So my PIMO Younger Brother Tried To Kill Himself Today

  by pale.emperor in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  we all know that this cult will drive those trying to leave to desperate measures, and today by brother was very nearly one of those statistics.

  he slashed his thigh with a kitchen knife and was bleeding out until he called the police.. i got a call on my way home from work from a police officer, coincidentally it was one of my old friends from school who's now a cop.

  he told me my brother is in hospital after an attempted suicide and has lost some blood but will be ok. but i should get to the hospital as he's asking for me.

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  Lostwun

  How's things coming along with your brother pale? Any word?
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  The speed with which I exited!!

  by joe134cd in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i was just thinking at how quickly the process was from pimi - pimo - pomo.

  i must of spent about 10 years trudging along in the organization very unhappily.

  but from the initial stages of learning ttatt to physically walking out the door the process took about 18 months.

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  Lostwun

  Once i started doing my research, it went like this:

  1) I first stopped singing kingdom melodies at the KH or saying Amen at the end of their prayers.

  2) I would find myself researching and reading threads on this website during the meeting on my phone.

  3) After discovering too much about the ttatt, i couldnt bring myself to walk into a kingdom hall anymore and just stop going cold turkey. I was literally disgusted by the lies i had been subjected to all these years of my life.

  I was considered exemplary in the cong so it didnt take long before the elders came a knockin'......

  all in all started doubting heavily in the beginning of 2015 and was out by june 2015. 5 months

  Lostwun
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  Very Lost

  by Jrjw in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

  i'm now separated.

  my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

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  Lostwun

  I feel for you JRJW, I really do. I myself can relate because I too had a very manipulative,lying, mentally and emotionally abusive ex-husband and a hall full of misogynistic elders as well as in laws who turned blind eye to what he was doing to me while married to him. I didn't know him well enough before I married him to know that he had issues beforehand nor did the people who knew his history tell me.

  Your happiness and well-being is paramount. You've already made the first right step by separating yourself and your child from him. I agree with Wake me up before you JOHO, be very cautious of those siding with him or telling you you should put up with the abuse and go back to him. THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS! Your soon to be ex will say anything to these people to make himself look like a sweet smelling rose while trying to sell the story that you are the unreasonable and crazy one. Don't fall for his manipulations or that of his flying monkeys.

  I felt the same way you did in the beginning for a long time, feeling like i was trapped with no options. However I'm here to say that however much the religion tries to make you feel like you have no options YOU are not trapped! If you are not happy get out! Work on getting your circumstances and that of your sons stable. then work on divorcing him. What the elders or your husband thinks or tries to threaten you with doesn't matter.

  I won't lie it's going to be hard in the beginning as you navigate through these tricky waters but YOU WILL SURVIVE this and you will come out stronger and happier. I Promise you that!

  My life has changed so much for the better since getting free of both the WT and divorcing my abusive ex. Yours will no doubt be the same and you will find real love again. But right now focus on getting out of this Marriage and away from the Abusive religion as well.

  Lostwun
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  How do I handle this?

  by Phoebe in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  a little advice please.. it's now 7 months since i stopped going to meetings.

  we still get regular calls by elders - at least every 2 weeks.

  i can handle them.

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  Lostwun

  I am in agreeance with everyone who said to ignore. It may be all sweet letters and I miss you right now but i guarantee you in about 2 more months time when they see its doing little to bring you back to the kingdom hall that the same little girl and whoever else put her up to it will be ignoring you and acting like you don't exist out in public.

  Carry on with your fade and making a new life with new friends who aren't just trying to get you to do what they want.

  Lostwun