i heard the most beautiful music on cd and thought: someone who can create such beauty to bring me to tears would surely appreciate the truth!
so i sent a letter and witnessed to him
i remember that right after france did a job on the wtbs w/taxes on donations i used an email-harvester and spammed about 250,000 french email addresses with an advertisement for free bible studies and a link to the french site.. .
i remember getting some replies, like "you can't do that, that's illegal.
" and i said "i'm an american, and it's legal here.
i heard the most beautiful music on cd and thought: someone who can create such beauty to bring me to tears would surely appreciate the truth!
so i sent a letter and witnessed to him
because my soul was hurting
my spirit was crying out to me~~ 'WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO YOURSELF, WHO OR WHAT ARE YOU LIVING FOR? FOR THE FUTURE THAT I CANT QUITE EVER SEEM TO TOUCH? EVERYTHING IS SO HYPOTHETICAL. WHY ARE THERE CREEPS STILL ROAMING ABOUT? WHY DO I FEEL THAT ALL THIS SACRIFICE IS IN VAIN? I KNOW I AM SINCERE, SO WHY DOES THIS NOT FEEL GOOD ANYMORE? WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO KEEP BELIEVING ALL THE TIME? I WANT TO BREATHE! I WANT TO BE ALONE WITH MY THOUGHTS! I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO TEACH ALL THESE INTRICATE RULES AND THOUGHT PROCESSES TO MY BEAUTIFUL FAERIES! I DONT BELONG HERE ANYMORE! I WANT OUT! I WANT TO DANCE (metaphorically and literally both)
if you were raised a jw, how well did you research the history of the org.
before you were baptized?
if you were a convert to the watchtower society , how well did you know the doctrines of the faith before your conversion?
born under the spell..
raised under the spell..
married under the spell..
divorced under the spell..
...walked out of the kingdom hell and onto a new pathe of self-discovery and a journey in which i'm fine with not knowing whats just around the corner, just aware of the present sounds good to me..
how you live your life.
concerns me not, but,.
strangely, pulls me in.
you are in a deep place...
my apologies if this has been posted before, but if it has it's worth a second look:.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kaiprrzvnjg.
not powerful, but terrified..how true
thanks for sharing that
snatched the forbidden fruit outta' eve's hand !.
made a fortune selling " manna helper " to the israelites !
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been a temple dancer
well, some of you know that i have a 16 year old son who lives with his jw mother.
she has already mastered the art of guilt control on him.
i am most anxious that he not get baptized at all or at least unless he has really understood the whole truth, not just the watchtower truth.
I just started reading this thread straight through, from the beginning (curious about any advice , as I am a mother)
I have to say that the way you are communicating w your kids is wonderful, they may express some of how they feel about you, but I would bet inside they are being deeply affected by the way you are respecting them as individuals and they probably feel so free and happy when they think of you, sensing that you love them unconditionally and for who they truly are....that is priceless, and you will see...they will always love you for it...
you are helping them to expand their minds, that wont be in vain
your're an inspiration!
Faerie
i know some who go to meetings because they feel they have to because of family or other considerations.. imagine going to a meeting and having your iphone with you!.
how would it look if you had a watchtower in your hands along with a tv guide?.
think about going to a meeting with strong booze breath.. any other suggestions?
i would TALK to everyone! ooooohhhhh! i would give lots of hugs and tell them i love them...
i could really do with some sound advice regarding my dad who is a long serving jw and his funeral arrangments.. my dad is in his last stages of cancer and has been talking with the elders about his funeral and with his family.
because a lot of his family are not jw's and that myself and my sister are both disfellowshipped.
he has chosen to have his funeral at the crematorium and hold a memorial at the kingdom hall a few days after.
just want to give big hugs to you!!
with my love,
Faerie
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then report the result here to compare with other posters.
good luck.
65/70 ...I care