Jeff,
WOW....this is the best post I've ever read on here.......selfishly, I admit......because you and I have lived parallel lives. I too was a 'hot shot' elder at 27....... I felt like I was reading MY STORY....... I got goose bumps.
I too was that 'popular, loving elder'......who really cared......and found out after my appointment how many elders are addicted to porn, how many are flat our alcoholic drunks, cheat in business........and the pedophilia???? My god, I taught the part at Kingdom Ministry School for elders..... and it ripped my heart out.
I left in Feb. 2009........from WT Conductor, Book Study Conductor and the seemingly appointed Chairman of all Judicial Committees one week......to totally disappeared in 7 days......I realize now that they also "took me and molded me into their own"..........they took my personal gifts and used the hell out of me. I feel used..........and so angry inside.
Thank you so much for posting this......I'm sitting here in pieces right now. I'm not alone..... reading your story made me actually realize....I am .....Not.......alone.............
I'd like to get to know you and your story more......