Posts by Joliette

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Im in America...

Like I mentioned in a previous post, people always talk about therapy and joining another church. You have to have the right ins

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Im assuming that the last two posters are males. Your experience is probably different.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Every situation is different. Maybe with you guys you had a more hopeful situation when you left and more support. If I ended up getting seriously sick and passing away I won't have any support. Yes some people can leave and live successful lives but not all can fit in with the world. Im one of those people. I've just been too brainwashed. Ill never live the normal life. Yes I do not go to the kingdom hall now but not being there hasn't benefitted me. I haven't gotten a lot of help from ex Jehovah's Witnesses.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Since a lot of my relatives are JWs and I made the stupid mistake of talking about my upbringing to non-JWs family and friends that I had, they all think I'm a JWs. Then I haven't been too successful at having a career, I'm in a lot of student loan debt, I don't have a lot of security out in the world. I've dealt with a lot discrimination at work (I'm African American and female) so I'm probably never gonna be able to pay back my student loans at all. I'm starting to realize that life is mostly a scam. Even when I try to explain being raised as a JW's to my past therapist, they didn't understand. I would have been better off just not talking about it all. Talking about it to people just made things worse. I believe anybody that is exposed to this religion or who follows it is cursed.

As two-faced and sociopathic as people are there, I probably would have more security being a JW's. I'm not sexually active, I don't smoke at all, I drink only very occasionally. No matter how much I've tried telling people I'm not a JW's people still think I'm a JW's. I know, it's a crazy existence. I had to make better choices when I was younger.

I know its a lot of hidden agendas at the kingdom hall, I know how bipolar the people are, I know there's a lot of scam artist there, but hey, the world isn't so much better. I have lesser of a chance of making it out in ' the world' because of the mistakes that I made in the past. If I had left when I was 18, had never talked about it again, avoided getting in debt, had started a family when I was younger, I probably would be scot-free by now.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

The biggest thing that I think of is: What if I have a medical emergency? What if I end up having a terminal illness? I don't smoke, drink very occasionally, and I do have non-JW's friends, but I've realized that most of them were never really my friends. I know a lot of people at the KH aren't really my friends either. It's really more of a security thing than anything. I don't have a lot of security out in the world.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

I've gone through therapy that hasn't really helped. Although I hate it and I know it's a scam, I may have to go back. Had to make better choices when I was younger. Had to realize that I wasn't a Jehovah's Witness and to never talk about it again. That's the hold that this group has on people. It's all mind control. They basically own you forever. It's like slavery. The world is a very hateful place, it's gotten more racist and discriminative since I got in my 30s. Yes, you guys I know what it's really all about now, I just wish I realized it when I was younger. Once I told non JWs friends, family and coworkers that I was raised as a JWs, that's where the mistake came in. Pretty much just destroyed my life.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Thanks for your reply. Sorry not having kids in my late 30's that shoulda happened in my 20s. I should have been married and had kids in my 20s. My mom had me at 19, and it's good that she started early. Things have really worked out for her but not for me. I'm gonna end up in some serious poverty, I can see it coming. I think it will probably have to do with something medically. I'm not having kids if I don't have support. There's no way that is happening to me. I'm not looking to get married but I was just making the point that should have happened a long time ago. It is what it is.

If I had a kid at 39, I'd be 60 when my child is 21. I may not even be around by then. I should have had children when I was younger.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Thanks, but that probably wont work, but thank you for the suggestion, but I'll probably have to be a Jehovahs Witness again. Shoulda made better choices when I was younger.. I'll probably will always disagree with it, but what other choices do I have? I've experienced a lot of rejection, abuse at work, under employment, etc. I believe groups like Jehovahs Witnesses was created for people who have experienced rejection from the world, who can't make it out in the world. I guess I am one of those people.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Yeah I know about the zoom thing...

What if I end up getting seriously sick, I'm not married at all, don't have children, and it looks like I wont ever have children because I am too old now. I haven't gotten a lot of help and support from other ex JWs. So what other choice do I have?

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

I havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years...but I may have to back...

Haven't found a lot of security in the world. Made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a Jehovah's Witness to some old friends and family. People have told me that I am still a JWs even though I've never been baptized. I'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt. I haven't really 'thrived' out in the world. Not married and I don't have any children.

Yeah, I know it's a scam, most of the people there are crazy and brainwashed, bipolar, insane, sociopaths, but its like what other choice do I have? I'll be 39 next year, I'm getting older and I don't have a lot of choices. I don't like the idea of being back in a cult, but what other support systems do I have? If my family passes away, especially my mom, I've come to realize that I'm not gonna have anybody whose really gonna have my back? The only person I get financial support from is my mother. Yes, she's two-faced, sociopathic, bipolar, but what else has worked for me? She's married and has way more security than me. Its really more of protection thing than anything. I don't have a lot of protection out in the world.

Even though I no longer believe it in do you guys think I'm crazy for this? At this point I just don't have any other choice.