Posts by Joliette

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

I really understand that there is a religious conspiracy, just based on the experiences that I had in my life. I really hope that there is a huge backlash and national outcry against highly controlled groups. It really is a conspiracy. Even when you want to leave, it's like they have a psychological hold on you that can never be reversed.

Really trying to get myself together in 2021 both economically and health-wise, trying to get my diabetes in check, trying to finish my human services degree, and hopefully move in the next year or so, maybe to another place, or to another city.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Even when you do leave the kingdom hall, (especially when your family is still in) it's REALLY hard to move on, I think with me, the best things for me to do was to leave as soon as I turned 18 and never talk about it again. Suicide rates are high for both active and ex JWs. There was a popular ex JWs who killed himself like 10 years ago. No matter how long I have been away from the kingdom hall it's like I'm STILL a Jehovah's Witness. People have actually told me that I am still at least mentally a JWs even though I haven't been to a meeting in over ten years. I didn't realize it was a cult until I was 26. I wish I had realized much earlier in life. I didn't get baptized when I was younger cause I felt that I needed to wait until I was an adult.

I more than likely will have to go back. No, I was never baptized, but I went from the time I was 3 until I was 28, so I may as well have been baptized. I should have left when I was 18. I almost died from diabetes (diabetic ketoacidosis) like a year ago, and my only support was my Jehovah's Witness mom.

I've read ex JW's material, made friends with ex JWs on FB, forums, etc, but they're still isn't solid help for people who have been exposed to cults. It's like they do irreversible brainwashing on you. Struggling economically, dealing with a lot of discrimination, triple oppression, etc. It's like people don't understand that every EX JW's experience is different. Not all people can leave this and just live a normal life and forget about it. I'll be 38, and I feel more trapped in my life than I ever have.

Like I mentioned earlier if anyone wants to reach out to me feel free to message me, [email protected].

Peace.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

The thing with me is that I live a pretty clean life. I drink a little bit, only on special occasions, I don't smoke at all...I know it's a scam and a cult, I know it's a highly controlled group, I know but at this point of my life, I don't have too many other choices. Because of the choices that I made when I was younger, I'm really suffering now.

Like I mention, some people leave the watchtower and are really successful, but some people are not. I'm starting to really understand why the suicide rate for this religion is so high. There is not enough offline, direct support. There is good online support, but you have to find the right people to talk to.

If anyone wants to email me, feel free: [email protected]. I'm not on here a lot anymore.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

The biggest thing with me, is that I should have left this religion back by the time I was least 21. The older you get and the longer you stay in: the harder it is to leave. I've been so brainwashed that I literally have to be on disability. Im barley functioning in the real world. The only thing that has truly helped me is government assistance and my jws parents that's it. I know the government is a part of the world but you guys get what I mean.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

You guys are missing the point. If something ends up happening to me who is going to help me? If I ended up getting seriously sick in an accident no ex Jehovah's Witness is gonna help. I know the religion is BS and I'm not throwing a pity party at all. Im being realistic. Maybe some xjws help other xjws but there isn't a large amount of xjws helping other ones. It's hard to leave when your family is still in it your relatives etc.

I believe that life is better for some ex Jehovah's Witnesses but not but for all. And it depends on what type of therapist you can find. Most therapist do not specialize in cult recovery. Right now I'm trying to get disability but it's been hell trying to get it gonna have to get an attorney. I've read books did research but i still have to go to work and function. It hasn't been very easy for me. I wish I was thriving out in the world. That's not true for all ex Jehovah's Witnesses.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

And most churches basically are all the same.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Im in America...

Like I mentioned in a previous post, people always talk about therapy and joining another church. You have to have the right insurance in order to get the best therapy.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Im in America...

Like I mentioned in a previous post, people always talk about therapy and joining another church. You have to have the right ins

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Im assuming that the last two posters are males. Your experience is probably different.

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Havent gone to the kingdom hall in ten years but may have to go back...

by Joliette in

made a big mistake of talking about being raised as a jehovah's witness to some old friends and family.

people have told me that i am still a jws even though i've never been baptized.

i'm in school for social services, dealing with student loan debt, and a lot of other debt.

Joliette

Every situation is different. Maybe with you guys you had a more hopeful situation when you left and more support. If I ended up getting seriously sick and passing away I won't have any support. Yes some people can leave and live successful lives but not all can fit in with the world. Im one of those people. I've just been too brainwashed. Ill never live the normal life. Yes I do not go to the kingdom hall now but not being there hasn't benefitted me. I haven't gotten a lot of help from ex Jehovah's Witnesses.