Why you're preparing to 'bail', I'm preparing to enter into the Society and become one of your Brothers in the Truth. Too bad you're on your way out! Now, I wish to state categorically that I disagree with your summamation when you stated the following:
"I was getting disilliusioned with the idea of servitude to a religion that was exerting so much control over its members, frustrating and depressing them, holding out that magic carrot. A future that was NOT coming."
How is the Society 'frustrating and depressing' anyone? I find their publications to be a refreshing change from the 'magic carrot' that Mormonism has held out for my wife and I these past 12 years, just to learn that it was all a lie, that the Book of Mormon is not true, that Joseph Smith was a misguided youth, not a true prophet and that Mormonism is a polytheistic religion, not a monotheistic one.
The 'future that was NOT coming' is infact, coming, God's word promises it, and I believe in the great 1,000-year day Sabbath rest of God that will be ushered in by means of Christ's Coming Kingdom. There were those in Bible times that didn't believe in it, and they lost their faith, and we were warned about such who would exist in our times, those wishing to 'plan out their own future', one that will lead to a hopeless end.
2 Peter 3:3-5 (GOD’S WORD Translation)
3 First, you must understand this: In the last days people who follow their own desires will appear. These disrespectful people will ridicule God’s promise 4 by saying, “What’s happened to his promise to return? Ever since our ancestors died, everything continues as it did from the beginning of the world.” 5 They are deliberately ignoring one fact: Because of God’s word, heaven and earth existed a long time ago. The earth appeared out of water and was kept alive by water.
2 Peter 3:3-5 (Worldwide English (New Testament))
3 Here is the first thing. In the last days, men will come who will make fun of holy things. They will do what they themselves want to do. 4 They will say, `He promised to come. Where is he? Our fathers have died. And since then everything is just the same as it has been since the world was made.' 5 They do not want to remember that long ago God spoke and made the sky. He made the land come up from the water.
You comment that, 'I go to meetings just enough to keep the elders at bay, go in service never, and basically live my social life outside the truth and as I please,' sounds alot like these descibed here who will 'do what they themselves want to do', and not what God's will is.
However, my friend, you may live your life as you please, but you are not free to choose the consequences of such a course in life. Your brother, whom you said, "could'nt stick it out in the world and returned" made the BEST decision of his life by returning to the teachings of the faithful and discreet slave class, he knew and saw firsthand that there is NOTHING outside Jehovah's organization that offers lasting peace and happiness as doing God's will does. Yes, mock as you all may, but remember, that doing God's will is the BEST WAY OF LIFE, and as the Scriptures show in Proverbs 10:, " 22 The blessing of the LORD, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorrow with it."
I'm sure we can all agree and be thankful that Jesus didn't come to 'do what [he] wanted to do', he came to do God's will, and as such, we have all been ransomed from the inherited sin passed onto us from Adam as outlined in Romans 5:12.
May what happened to King Zedekiah not happen to you, my friend, where we read that because of his rejection of Jehovah's prophet we read that, "Zedekiah's sons were slaughtered before his eyes, and then Nebuchadnezzar had him BLINDED, BOUND, and led away to BABYLON. (Jer. 39:1-7) How sad an end awaited him because he rejected the very will of Jehovah God! The three B's, the ways in which Satan, the 'god of this system of things' gets us, easily, slowly and he does it in that manner, he blinds you first, then he slowly bounds you with the cords of sin, and then he leads you off to Babylon, or to false religion, whether that religion be so-called atheism, or agnosticism, it's still a form of worship, whether humanistic or not, there are only two beings that we have the choice to worship, either Jehovah or Satan, and if you're not serving the One, you're serving the other.
Again, I'm not a baptized Witness, just a Bible student, studying the Bible with them by the aid of the book, "What Does the Bible Really Teach?" and I"m enjoying learning all of these things from the pages of the Bible, the true word of God, not the Book of Mormon or any other false religious document. I know some of you will mock, or pity me, but I'm now free, set free by Bible truth, and my wife, son and I couldn't be happier! Now, I'm in the military, so it will be some time before I can 'get out' and get baptized, but I cannot wait until the day arrives when I can symbolize my dedication to Jehovah God by water baptism!
We all have 'free will', and saying that a religion is 'controlling you' just doesn't make sense, if you keep your focus on Jehovah, and your relationship with Him, and realize that the Society is here to help us and to act as our publishing arm, then you'll keep in constant focus that it is to Jehovah you are dedicated, and it is to Him you will give an accounting, not to an Organization someday.