@westiebilly11 Agreed. Although it can't be premature if it will never happen.
But to answer the question without giving a long explanation: I'm wide awake...from that cult. I'm just happy I never actually went through the process of getting baptized and my mother (RIP) didn't force me to do anything and let myself be my own individual. Otherwise, it would have had way more of a negative effect on me - Than it already has mentally.