You sound like I did.. that is to say, you sound like a born in. If the gb had any doubt their model of indoctrination is not working they have only to look at your list and realize that it is running at peak efficiency. Your list exemplifies the fact that you have fallen for what THEY want you to think is important.
I have said it before... the watchtower is awesome at creating adults with low self esteem. Your first step in rectifying this is to get the fuck out. There are many excuses for not leaving. There are very few excuses that hold any weight against the weight of becoming your own true self.
pbrow