DylanBeam
Your personal integrity and intellectual honesty (if you have them), should demand you look at both sides of the coin before deciding to become a Jehovah's Witness. Once you become one, there is no going back.
This site is pretty nasty for someone who seems as sensitive as yourself. However, if you approach it with the mindset that you don't have to agree with (or even read) everything that people post here, you'll do just fine. Just keep an open mind.
If you would like some help, with no pressure from radical forum posters like us...go to www.jwfacts.com and read as much as you can there. The information is well researched, and offers some non-agressive counter-points to what you'll be learning from your Bible Study Conductor. By the way, they will likely be using the book, "What Does The Bible Really Teach?" It is available for download in PDF format here: http://download.jw.org/files/media_books/bh_E.pdf
I've also found Crisis of Conscience and In Search of Christian Freedom to be excellent aids in learning some opposing viewpoints about the organization. They were both written by Raymond Franz, former member of The Governing Body. He is in no way inflamatory or vicious about his views, and I think you'll be surprised how much you enjoy his books.
I really hope that you put some thought into this, and realize that we are not a bunch of "apostate maniacs" who are trying to trick you out of salvation. No one from The Kingdom Hall is going to tell you the entire story about The Organization. They are only going to tell you what they want you to hear. In fact, they will warn you that your family/friends/Satan will try to prevent you from learning "The Truth". Most importantly, they will warn you not to talk to ex-members. This is a common control mechanism used by many religious cults. They will try to make you afraid to listen to anyone else before those people even have a chance to share their viewpoints.
I wish I had been fortunate enough, and old enough to learn some of the things this site has taught me before I got baptized. I'm currently stuck in the organization, along with my family and friends. If I leave, it will cost me everything. You have an opportunity to make an informed decision. PLEASE DO NO WASTE IT. Even if you decide that Jehovah's Witnesses are "great" and you want to be one, at least you will have made that choice with all the facts at your disposal.
I wish you the best, and welcome to the forum.
dontplaceliterature
(Born In Jehovah's Witness - Active & Currently Serving as a Ministerial Servant)