This is a public forum. I can go where I want. I don't need permission or a reason. AND - I can make whatever comments I chose within forum guidelines.
I was just trying to understand you. That's why I said "I (JM) don't know".
Anyway oblivion is meaningless so there's nothing to do beyond accelerate the inevitable and eternal oblivion.
To a nihilist existence is nothing but pain. That's why true nihilist are always drunk and trying to kill themselves.
Beyond that any opinion from a nihilist is literally nothing.
Theism, atheism, agnosticism, whateverism... All meaningless.
Just oblivion "matters".
Existence is only meaningless pain.