I haven't changed my personality that much, but as others have noted, my attitude and outlook have definitely changed for the better. The biggest attitude changes were toward other people and myself most of all. As Mad Sweeney said, I used to think of others people, no matter how good and upright they were, as future bird food. Their good qualities wouldn't save them once Armageddon's thunder rolled and while I regretted that, I felt I had to accept it as "the truth".
As for myself, the long darkness of self-hatred I had is over. You cannot be a gay man and stay in this organization. There is no room for men like me in it no matter how hard we try or how much we may want to remain. The assault on my self esteem was endless and looking back on it now, I marvel that I survived at all. I know others who were not as lucky as I was. This religion cost them their lives.
Being disfellowshipped was the beginning of my healing, but even then it has taken me some years to finally get to this point. For nearly five years I tried to get reinstated. I am now so grateful that never worked. It was only when I made my decision to turn my back forever on this religion that I could finally move forward. I have met other people, gay and straight, who have helped me see myself as I truly am. As long as I was one of Jehovah's Witnesses, I lived in a Hall of Mirrors. Every image I had of myself was a distorted one. That is why, having made good my escape, there is no way I will ever return.
The better elements of my personality are manifesting themselves again and I am very happy about that. Suppressing and denying who we are is a very dangerous thing, and this religion excels at teaching its adherents this. What it calls 'putting on the new personality' is actually an insidious form of mental and emotional suicide. But now that I am out and free, I am determined to live life to the full. As Robert Frost put it, choosing the road not taken has made all the difference to me.
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