prologos you compare a puddle of water to a human being? The WT did a number on all of us who woke up to the lie they are about. But, I never blamed God for what they did to me. It was God who led me out of that religion. It was a pure miracle how God helped me. I prayed and prayed pretty much day and night for weeks asking for direction when I was so confused and blinded by the WT. I was given a different bible one day and I sat there and compared word for word the NWT to this bible. Shocked to see the differences. I was starting to wake up to the truth. This bible was given to me by a stranger! I didn't know the NWT was different. That is was screwed up. Had no clue.
One day at work a huge 1-800 number phone book was delivered to the office. Never had before in the 10 years working there had a 800 book been brought to the office.. I looked up religion. I saw a help line. I called and told the man my struggle with my religion. This man knew Ray Franz. He put me in touch with him. I talked several time to Ray. He sent me his books. I read them. Asked many question. Went to a private home with him and other former JW's and had the memorial with him and partook . That was just the tip of the ice. From there it snowballed. I was searching for truth sincerely with my whole entire being and heart. God didn't ignore me, he helped me. i had never had such faith. You can't begin to find God and know Him without faith. You have faith that we evolved but not faith that we were created. I don't understand that. But the choice is up to each one of us. It is a decision that we each have to make. To believe or not. I choose to believe. To me the evidence is there . It breaks my heart that some JW's choose not to believe in God when they left. The WT , JW's will have to answer to God for stumbling these people. I do think God understands your struggle, the struggles of all former JW's, and He knows what you have been through.
Anyway..my thoughts. I know it is a deep conversation and people have different views. That is ok , doesn't meant I can't tell how I feel about God and my beliefs too.